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i'm too busy and tired to blog about things that are happening and blah but here's just a short post for my squad, nobody else but my squad.

to my dearest squad 26,

didnt i wrote that we'll get there at the back of your photos? (: see, we did, hadnt we?

dont be sad that there was no placing for you all in the top3. dont be sad cos you thought you disappointed your maams. like what i told yixuan, you all are always the winners in our hearts. the true winners, who have won back such nice and sweet squadmates, a super blur commander and us, the two VIs. (:

isnt this the greatest achievement you can get?

my tears came rolling down when i met you all at the parade square and i gave a smile. the smile was for the fact that i was really proud to see all of you putting in your very best and never giving up even till the last minute. the tears were in fact tears of joy that made me felt so warm,the 18 individuals coming together as one, drilling to the beat as one and being so bonded now. (:

and seriously speaking, your drills were good. who say you werent good? werent everyone shocked by your unity when you marched out? the coordination of the armswings, the raised to 90degrees legs, the loud bangs and everything, it was totally awesome. we just lack experience this year. but i'm sure that we did pick some skills back and next year would definitely be better! (:

your never say die spirit impressed me and made me felt so proud of you. that's the fuhua squad that yixuan & i have trained, that's the squad that despite facing setbacks, it will not give in and it will continue to work hard till the very end. this perseverace of yours is one thing i will definitely bring along with me in my lifelong journey ahead.

i will miss the parade square, the saturday trainings, the lunches in school, and what's most important, i will miss you.
&&, why must you all make me cry at your posts?! BOO!
seriously, i miss squad 26. i miss my girls & the guy. tanyixuan, you are being missed too!

you are my first unit, and i promise you will be the last too.
and if one day, anybody were to ask me what's the previous unit that i took,i will be most proud to say FUHUA for there is all of you around.

win or lose, we are always one squad. always (:

say fuhua from the west (echo)
i say fuhua is the best (echo)
i say fuhua beats the rest & in the west we are the best!

*tune of myojo maggie mee*
FUHUA!!

loves,
esther.

Labels: fdc08

it has been long ever since i stepped into this place.
i have been busy, really busy ever since my last proper post.

in summary,
here's what i have been busy with:

house visits esp on day1 & 2 of cny! (:

house visits are so nice! especially with my cousins around! (: and mind you, i wore dresses on 1st two days of cny! haha. went hongyi's house with the gang. his mum can cook really well. had a nice time catching up with them! (: the chocolates gambling can be addictive. haha

pool with the gang after the visit to hongyi's place! it's a record breaking day, isnt it? wows to keane & boos to qx. (:

meetups

meet up with nic for 4days consecutively! went shopping with nic from mon-wed for his gf's present, sourcing out craft materials, and the making of the card was the most tedious job!
dinner with denise, short one and daphne! it was definitely a nice catching up session! kobayashi! (:
meetup with hui (sorry to make you wait so long while i had my interview)
meetup with sharon! (thanks for the super nice mel bag! love it to bits! )

OTHERS

braces appointment (they tighten it and ouch, it hurts. ): on a lighter note, it've been changed to purple brackets! )
fdc training (last training! ): it gonna all end tmr. )
job interview (i got employed & i'm starting work next monday!)
redcross redcross & more redcross. (secretaries for all events! )

see how busy & worn out i am?
i think i need a break but somehow, all this just crams together and i cant find the time. what's more,i'm starting work on monday, admin temp at molex. hope that i can cope with everything well.

but still, even though i never update, thanks to all who made my blog hits jumped by a 50 everyday. and also, thanks to your tags! (:

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i'm off to camp in another 2hours time.
yes, it's the fsrcy fdc08 camp.

to my squad who is not going to see this since you are booking in soon, i'm here to tell you:
all the best! i have faith in you girls & my one and only guy of course.

for the past two months plus, it had been tough on all of you, to have endured through the numerous tough trainings and scoldings. it has been tough on us to, having to handle all sorts of things.

all the tears, the disappointments, the joy and the laughters,
it is all found here, in fdc08's squad.

i know some of you may still not put your whole heart and soul into this competition for you are unhappy with the scoldings and etc, but let's put together this unhappy past and fight on for one last day.

alrights, i know it may seem quite dumb but yes, this 2002 ndp song has it all that i want to tell you, have it all that i want to sing to you, have it all to tell you that we will get there together as a squad.

the competition is all going to end in another 24hours time. win or lose, we are always one squad.

let us give in our all and let's fight fight fight to the very end. we can do it, i'm sure we can. let's bring fsrcy to glory once again at bendemeer's parade square tmr! (:

We Will Get There
Remember the days, we set out together with faith?
Remember the times, so fine, when we thought that
Nothing could stand in our way?

Then things weren't the same, the life that we knew had to change
We've struggled through, the darkest storms
We thought we couldn't tame
Together we've tried, as we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world
A world of hope for ever after.

Chorus:
Deep in my heart I just know,
Right from the start, we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
And there's still a long, long way to go.

With all of my heart, I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand
We will get there

So now we begin, working together to win
Believing in trust, it must
Be possible to overcome anything.

There's so much to do, there's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love
We will start again anew

So why don't we try?
If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world

A world of hope for ever after.
(Repeat Chorus)

FDC08, DRILL TO THE BEAT AS ONE, HA! (:

Labels: cny, fdc08, meetups

TAG REPLIES:
tommy; nah, false alarm from my friend. it’s coming out on last week of feb as heard from seab. ): I’m getting fatter and fatter each day. but luckily, I have my braces to balance it up since I cant really eat a lot after they have just tightened it on wed. =/

maosiie; yes maam! (: haha, I will try to. past few days have been really busy and got freaked out when I heard that results are releasing so my mood is abit lousy. anyway, happy belated valentine’s! (:

nightm@re; okays, I get that. I know my msn sucks. HAHA. sorry la!

kristie; boo! you promised to save some chocolates for me but you ate them all up. ):

zq; haha! cannot is it? we both love chocolates and prawn rolls what. (: see you later and jiayou for fdc, commander! (:

dC; you liar! how can you possibly tell such a lie at my blog? I know I am okays. (;

Labels: tags

too lazy, moodless & tired to update.
goodnights!

TAG REPLIES:
eileen; i left a note for you at min en's place! =x
tommy; it often slipped off my mind to exercise after that. =x so that explains my back-to-the-fat-old-me size. ): i dont know leh. it should be this friday or next monday. it's freaking me out totally! ): happy cny!
qingxiang; your com is lousy la. anyway, take good care of your kneecap! meeting up with you again soon! (:
yuanhao; that can NEVER be possible. i'll just pray that i can do well. dont really pin too high hopes. =/ dont worry, you are going to survive in your field camp. hope that you are still kicking alive and coping well in the jungle. (:
shiyuan; happy cny! see you tmr! (:
freddy; yea, i saw that. and that photo is ugly please. boo.
kristie; i dont mind the chocs being fattening. i just want to eat! =x and stop tempting me with prawn rolls! you are so evil. haha but anyway, too bad, you cant really tempt me that much. cos up till now, i think i finished about 4-5bottles of it? HAHA!
gabriel; haha dont be so pissed. there's still sweeney todd. (:
dC; it's monday! (: and i'm seeing you again in a few days' time.
zq; yalor! she's so mean right. lol
rouisanna; HAHA! that will not be true for me, i guess.this bad habit of mine is really hard to kick off. i think this running to bus stop and from place to place has already become like a daily routine to me. lol

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It seems so different.

Sweeney Todd
;the demon barber of fleet street

My first movie of the year & Sad to say,

it’s my first m18 movie too after I turned 18 nearly a year ago! =/

and yea, it was dedicated to mr mok cos he loves Johnny depp. Haha!

M18 movies are usually very gruesome, full of violence and horror

& it’s just not my cup of tea.
Despite not being my cup of tea, i watched it. =/
It was quite gruesome and irritating at certain scenes and many a times,

I had to use my shawl to cover my eyes for they were really disgusting. =x

Nonetheless, the movie was nice, so was the company. (:
Thanks for the jacket & the ride back home! (:

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27 dresses
;always a bridesmaid, never a bride

Ohman, the dresses were so cute, pretty & some were so hilarious. HAHA.
James Marsden acted in this show again! (:

ohwell, he just reminded me of the movie enchanted and …

Watching this movie makes me feel like getting married too!
I wanna get married now!
alrights, I must have gone cranky again. zzz

Anyway, sharon and I were discussing that perhaps next time,
we can become wedding planners too!
it’s such a nice job, planning such blissful weddings for the couples and feel the love that exists so strongly when two individuals would want to sign on this
long-term-till-death contract and commit to each other.
It’s just so sweeeeet. (:

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I hate myself so much!
Fancy me eating two slices of butter cake at 12.40AM last night?!
And it’s BUTTER cake. It’s damn fattening please!
I gonna look so fat in the dress I’m wearing tmr. ):

Anyway, I’m looking forward to reunion dinner later!
Gonna chat with my lovely cousins like nobody’s business! (:

HAPPY CNY! (:

Labels: meetups, movies

TAG REPLIES:
yixuan; HAHA, that's her typical way of doing and saying things. can really drive people crazy. no no, dont ever block me. i think i'll scream at whoever's blocking my way that day. ha, pray hard that the competition will go well for us and my results will turn out good for me.
kristie; no need to apologise la! haha! okays, i hold you for that. yay, you are saving some chocolates for me! (: i love chocolates! purple braces is coming my way! (:
princess; hello polly! i never forget you la! haha. i have been too busy with a lot of stuff. happycny! (:
brose; LOL. you will get to eat them when you do house visits? HAHA. or maybe after our meeting on the 22nd, we go eat chicken wings? lol. thanks brose! take care of yourself too! (:
alvin; happy cny! (: see you soon!

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the good, the bad, the laughters, the tears.
The good ol’ memorable times.

“cos there are some part of my boots got white white thing,

I used the black paint to paint my boots to cover up.”
HAHAHA.

This really gave me a good laugh yesterday.

But sad to say,all good things do come to an end.

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Footdrill com is just another 14days away.
Let it be a memorable competition for all of us, for the 17, for yixuan and for me.
Do it well, do it good, do us proud.

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today is my last day of work.

yays, no more tiger beer for me!

anyway, weiliang was nice to pay me a visit yesterday with

my pay cheque and chocolates. (:
Gonna make a trip down to Adecco tmr before going down to hq to

meet the juniors to pack the logistics for Footdrill com safety.

Thankfully, I have people like them to volunteer to pack the logs. (:

meeting douglas for movies tmr. (:

off to bed, goodnights!

TAG REPLIES:
hazel; sorry nut! had been really really busy for the past few days. will touch my mailbox tmr! =/ takecare alrights?

peiwen; the shirt is really cute! (:

kristie; you are super evil please. but I seriously think I cant eat the new year goodies. =s I’m changing the colour of the brackets to purple! (:

d; hello daph! so sorry that I didn’t attend. was quite sick and I don’t have the energy to pull myself out. I’ll definitely go for the next meeting! take care! (:

zq; I updated already! (: haha, my msn is kind of screwed.

yixuan; nah, don’t be crazy. I can never be the top scorer. this time round, I wont let you open my results slip for me. HAHA.

tommy; yesyes! you are quoted! your words always make so much sense and knock me back into reality when sometimes I do feel like running away from it. haha, yupps I do have a super busy schedule. results gonna be released soon! ahhh. =/

yuanhao; it’s okay. you can still take them after you are out from that two torturing years of NS. haha! besides, taking appointments can be quite stressful at many a times.

gabriel; yupps, let’s pray for good results! hope that you are adapting well to ns life, guoxiong! haha.

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Oops I lied. =x
I lied about wanting to blog after I knock off from work on Monday night. =x

I had been busy with:

work! (yes, my tiger beer promoter job)
tutoring my kid
sourcing out first aid documents
doing up safety plan for NFC
watching gong zhu xiao mei
fsrcy training

meetups are all being held on hold since last week and okays, I hear people scolding me now. =x I’ll be able to meet up starting this coming Friday! (: so please stop cursing me. Haha. My work assignment is going to end this coming Sunday and I’ve have more time to meet up after that! yay. (:

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Release of As
O level results are out. the release of the o level results would spell that doomsday is nearing. Damn, anyway, I plan to be late on the day which A level results will be released. It’s going to be damn scary if I have to sit there and listen to the principal’s preachings and that would make us all more nervous. I would rather be late than to have my heart jumping out of my mouth even before the results slip is in my hands. =s

-prays hard that I’ll do well-

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A lesson to learn
Scoldings are things that we will have to encounter along life’s long journey. If we are scolded for a valid reason, it just tells that we will have to correct ourselves and not go on making the mistakes despite knowing it. Of course, if we are being misunderstood and being scolded, we will definitely feel that we are being wronged. Those scoldings will develop hatred in them, for they are being wronged.

Scoldings are the ones that trained one to be disciplined, to correct their own mistakes and not commit it again. they are the ones who hit you hard and make you swallow your pride and ego. On the other hand, they are also the ones who make people realise the truth behind everything.

Taking things for granted is one mistake that everyone of us do make, be it to the people around us or people who love us. I cant deny the fact that I do make this mistake. Sometimes, when we take things for granted, the next time when we yearn for this person to stay by us, it is already too late. This person is no longer there, no longer standing strong to be your support. You have hurt this person way too deep.

when you are the one taking things for granted, you do not know how much you hurt the other party. Only when you are being taken for granted, perhaps, you will then understand the feeling.

This is one thing that everyone of us definitely have to learn and walk through in life. If not, we will forever not grow up.
Face it, face the reality, know the truth, know your mistakes and correct them.

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Significant meaning
Just like what tommy said, there’s always an end to everything. Though things may end it that way, it’s accompanied by good memories and those memories are the ones that will never be stolen away cos it belongs to me. It is not only of significant value and meaning for that very reason. It’s also because it’s where it all started.

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Red Cross
a number of chances to take up appointments are given this year, having at least 2 on hand now, one for short term, the other for a year basis. Though I feel stressed having accepted these appointments, fearing that I will screw it up and do a lousy job, I’m quite thankful that I’m being nominated/ being approached for it. (:

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More of my random thoughts:

blog hits reach 390+ and it’s only been 6days! It’s not even a week. haha thanks all for being so supportive of my blog.
I love online shopping! (since I don’t have much time to go shopping)
the Caltex manager is cute! =x
you are definitely being missed! all those songs heard, reminds me of you. (:

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PHOTOS(:

the loudhailers :]