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haix.todae de fdc performance was a total diaster.everything failed.haix.wad kind of timer am i?
Todae went sch earli in the morning cos neber finish mY purpLe ma wang zi de hmk. =x feel sooo guilty sia.hahx.oopx.hadda a haircut on saturdae at storm.omIgod.think mY hair sux a lot nw ya?haiyah.suan lex ba.alreadi cut lex.wat to do?went to dsiao teacherx.aniwae,thanx yixuan fer helping mI develop the photox.the photox are nice huh?alrite.shant tok much abt todae.needa go tok on fone liaox.aniwae,wufeng went genting todae.hope tt he will take care ya? Here am I back after a long buzy week.kinda shag.hmx.aniwae,happie belated bdae to jinming~ it was his bdae last thur.hmx.i guess I was the one hu wished him the most number of times huh?l0lx.last wk very very bz lorx.cos is CNY mah.went to sooo many ppl de hse.last fri gt sch.haix.dunno how to face hIm and her sia.waited fer hIm fer more den ard 25min tt morning.went to find her.she handed mI a letter of explaination.haix.the content made mI sorta complicated huh?aniwae,planned to have a private conference at 3pm in 3D classrm.haix.everything did nt turn out too well.feel sooo guilty?if it wasn’t fer mI den everything wont turn out like this.thanx mY dearest gurllx.thanx mY buddiex too.went down fer training at ard 4plus.took charge of the fdc squad cos denise needa go hq mah.everything was quite ok ba.saturdae went to ms lee hse wib gurllx.hahx.realli very funnie sia.cos mI wear high heelx mahx.den canut cross the drain.l0lx.thanx mY xianggong.heex.aniwae,it was sooo malu lorx.mI still took out mY high heelx den cross tt steep drain?l0lx.hadda lots of fun at ms lee hse.aniwae,jinming kinda troubled these few daex.mux cheer up kaex?valentines dae- quite a lonely dae huh?of cos larx.mI single nehx.but maybe single rawkx fer mI?ytd nite I took back mY fone and jux play play.suddenly pressed until the missed calls tt section.omIgod.he called mI on the 8th at ard 11plus in the morning when he and yc saw mI in jP tt dae.gosh.mI shocked tio lorx.went find hIm tok tok.he said tt he called mI tt dae to explain to mI wads happening.jux feel kinda happie ya?but maybe everything is jux too late lex.i had alreadi decided nt to fall fer hIm and I realli hope tt I mean wat I said.haiyah.oso dunno wad mY stupid mind is thinking sia.i juz cant keep holding to the past.i shld move on ya?aniwae,gave mY buddiex some chocolatex plus some prezziex.our dearest mr ng bought us big big heart balloons wib our names written on it bY mY dearest xiaomin.wEeEeEsS~ mY black prince charming is sooo sweet & thoughtfuL.l0lx.after sch gt seC 1 orientation.think tt is a rehersal fer the real seC 1 orientation ya?cos it is kinda sad to see the attendance.hope tt the reaL seC 1 orientation will be great ba.todae oso gt lion dance.ben,jinming,jiawei & wufeng came back.wufeng finally came back lex.jux quitted job nt long ago.asked mY three marias to pei mI go out buy some stuff.l0lx.denise oso went along.mY three marias come frm pulau ubin de.am I rite ben,jiawei & wufeng?l0lx.they three bully mI lorx.sooo notti lehx.esP tt jiawei & wufeng.at least ben is nicer.l0lx.aniwae,mY black prince charming gave de balloon shrinked in size until it became a devil.diaox.l0lx.at least I am nt alone on valentines dae.wed is the first dae of common test.didnt manage to finish mY compo.suan lex ba.think this time sure fail dex.aniwae,mY dearest mr chia wore purpLe todae.l0lx.wEeEeEsS~ he is sooo cooL and handsome.l0lx.sooo shuai & cute nehx.oopx.am I going craZy again?hahx.he sooo poor thing nehx.gotta sore throat again.sadx huh?thur gt chinese paper.mI and xiaomin bought streps fer him.mI was like a bit shocked tio when he handed mI a note during his invigilation while we were having chinese paper.mI was like looking at tt note.kept smiling?l0lx.after the test,read the note he had given mI.l0lx.he thanked mI fer the strepx.said tt I had been very nice & I was very thoughtfuL.hahx.super duper happie sia.think mI rising to heaven liaox.oopx.den tt tupid denise go spread to mY papa[ mr loH] and other teachers in the staffrm tt mR chiA is mY purpLe ma wang zi.l0lx.sooo paiseh lorx.hahx.helped mR chiA collect the files todae.helped him wib a lot of other stuff larx.think tt is all fer todae lex ba.needa go studi ss lex.before I faiL.hahx. Haix.it had been sooo sad fer mI huh?hmx.dun tok abt tt & let it spoil mY mood first.hmx.on mondae,ms chan was sick so neber come sch.realli sooo song lorx.cos todae gt a total of 5periods of lessons wib her including after sch de remedial.omIgod.that was cool huh?alrite.during the relief periods did a lot of other hmk but jux dun feel like doing her essay larx.sianx.mr chia is finally back frm NS lex.sooo happie to see him.aniwae,todae de bio lessons all very bian tai lorx.wahpiang.esp tt mdm rafidah.dunno why she sooo crazy todae.tok crap wib us abt some sexual stuff.mY class became very enthu abt it as per normal huh?l0lx.alrite.finished all lessons at 2pm.wEeEeEsS~ wanna go jP buy jinming de prezzie.is mI,yankai & chengteng share dex.sianx lorx.she tag along wib mI,denise & qy.haix.totally sianx diaox sia.she knw tt sth was wrong wib mI cos I neber tok to her as much as I tok to her b4 mah.so she kept asking mI and etc larx.sianx.also heard frm qy tt she asked her whether I still like hIm or nt.she still told qy nt to tell mI abt it.wth.haix.suan lex.went to pmk again.oh mI.realli love pmk de clothes lorx.sooo nice.bought a black tee fer jinming?hope tt he will like it ba.i chose the design worx.hahx.went to muee.she wanna buy some stuff mah.saw jinming & ben.pengx nehx.why such a coincidence dex?-.-‘’’ hahx.alrite.jinming needed mY help to choose yankai de prezzie.diaox.he very wat nehx.so late nw is alreadi feb liaox den he give her the prezzie.very bad horx?hahx.alrite.went wib tt two prezzie-idiots to choose prezzie.l0lx.hahx.oopx.i didn’t mean to say tt dex.l0lx.but hu ask tt tupid ben & jinming to offend mI?l0lx.meanwhile,mux thanx them fer helping mI takeaway mY fave.ljs!!! wEeEeEsS~ hmx.wanna go back sch.took 198 den saw the two of them again.diaox.guess how idiotic the two of them can be?they spoke sooo loudly den sae I eavesdrop? L0lx.but lucky I clever.knw how to tackle them back.lalalax~ alrite.mux rmb mention sth.tt tupid ben super duper funnie lorx.hahx.he saw his primary sch friend on the way back mah.den he was like asking the friend where he was going.the friend was said poly.den guess wat tt tupid ben said? [orhx.ngee ann?] guess what was the reply? His friend is heading towards polyclinic & nOt ngee ann polytechnic.l0lx.dsiao ben lorx.kept laughing at him.wAhAhAhaS~ oopsy.i realli dun mean to laugh at him de.l0lx.alrite.on the way back saw jiawei.passed him the drink.at first wanna pass to ben & jinming on the bus dex but I forgot.cos I cant drink mah.paiseh arx.passed jinming the prezzie together wib yankai.den he gave her belated prezzie.l0lx.both teex also I choose de worx.honoured huh?hmx. tt dae de training was quite tough fer them.paiseh lehx neber join u gurllx plus yongseng.cos I gt gastric tt is why I neber fall in.haix.scouts came to tok crap wib mI fer a short while.he was like standing aside.faraway frm mI.ever since tt dae sent hIm tt msg,we neber even tok or even send each other any msg lorx.kinda sad huh?haix.kept praying tt everything will be ok by the next dae cos it is the 8th but… todae is chinese new year eve lex.wOwS~ time fliex.still remembered last year de this very dae,I felt very blessed but it was no longer the same fer this year huh? Alrite.save all these sad stuff fer the back first ba.earli in the morning pia to sch wanna help xiaomin out in the class deco mah.went find minyen tok tok.she like surrounded bY flower luck like tt sia.hahx.fer the first 2periods pia the class deco lorx.think our class did quite well this year.definitely better den last year lorx.went fer assembly.all the performances still ok larx.lion dance was super gd though there was a slight prob.but think jJ alrite huh?hmx.cheerx fer the scouts! Definitely nt forgetting the three of them hu came back to help out.ben, jinming & jiawei. Cheerx fer u guyx too! Class deco competition results were out.cheerx fer 4C definitely.cheerx fer 4F too.hmx.we quite disappointed wib the results of cos.well I mean this time round,we put in so much more effort den last year & it was mostly recycled stuff lehx.den we onli gt consolation sia.sadx nehx.lost to the sec5s.sianx.after celebration wanna go home wob laogong.on the way out saw her again.sianx diaox.haix.aniwae,we saw madalene.paiseh arx.neber buy tix frm u fer the JJC love fiesta thingy.aniwae,on the way back,saw hIm walking in front of mI.den she tag along wib us larx.sensed tt sth is nt right lorx.cos it is like she finish sending her msg to the other party lex,he immediately picked up his fone to msg & vice versa.dun wanna care much first.before walking to the next block,she said tt she kinda in a rush to get home & watever nonsense larx.but I dun think it is true lorx.all of a sudden after receiving a msg,she suddenly said tt she gt sth on & etc.heck care lorx.went jP.saw minyen they all.one whole gang of ppl sia.they all disappeared together after the celebration jux to not let her tag along.hmx.we all were seperated cos mI,peishi,minyen & laogong wanna go makan at ljs mah.den connie and jess wanna buy clothes.ivy,melisa,lydia & denise jux went shop shop so all were seperated.ivy suddenly called up peishi saying tt she saw her wib hIm at jP.diaox.wtf.mI was alreadi starting to have mixed feelings at tt point of time lex.haix.tt is not the end of story lehx.went to help laogong wib the ordering.suddenly,minyen & peishi appeared behind mI,wanna block mY view.haix.guess I no nid to sae wat I saw lex ba? It is sooo obvious lex.controlled mY feelings.kept telling mYself tt I canut breakdown.but well I guess,I couldnt.thanx minyen,peishi & laogong fer cheering mI up.realli appreciate ur kindness.aniwae,paiseh peishi & minyen fer spoiling ur moods.thanx connie,melisa & denise also.haix.mood was in a total mess.how I wish I could dump everything behind & move on wib everything tt I have nw.saw jiawei, ben, jinming, jJ & xiaojie on the way out of ljs.mux realli thanx ben & jiawei lorx.if dun have ben de nonsense of propriety & stuff,I wouldnt even smile.& also,thanx angelx fer letting mI kick U to vent mY anger & also thanx fer cheering mI up.aniwae,I think I realli needa do some reflections on wat connie had told mI.haix.pei them go 7-11. came out liaox den saw her, hIm & kangwei.haix.realli in a lost of words at tt time.mixed feelingx.jux walked away in a haste.minyen & peishi didnt come along.went back to pull them back wib laogong.heard frm minyen tt she & peishi scolded them bit*h & bastar*.haix.i dun even knw wat to do at tt point of time sia.totally lost.nearly went up find angelx fer help.i think I had realli caused the two of them to fall out wib her even more even though they said tt they dun care abt it.haix.can anyone tell mI wat I shld do?till nw,I am still waiting fer her to explain to mI.or maybe I shld sae I am waiting or hoping fer hIm to explain it to mI.haix.depressed.heartbroken.why did the 8thfeB ended up like this?i am lost. i'm feeling confused.tml is the 8thfeb lex.haix.wat shld i do?i am holding back mY tears nw.i cant cry todae.neither can i tml.i miss u.i love u just too much tt everything u are doing nw hurtx mI.confused.heartbroken Finally here.sianx.realli sooo bz wib sch & rC stuff.sooo hurtx too.haix.feeling sooo depressed.well.aniwae,happie belated bdae to connie & melisa!may happiness surround the both of u~let mI start wib mondae.Mondae gotta english test. Fdc training.Tue gt rC dance training.haix.another complicated dae.the gurlls were sorta having some conflicts & some misunderstandings.haix.i really very useless sia.wad kind of leader am i? If I can settle everything & do mY part & lead them as a leader,all these wouldn’t have happened.i am really very useless.why am I like tt? Haix.tearx kept flowing out.hope tt they realli knw wads happening & wads causing all these misunderstandings.haix.jiawei, jinming, ben they all gt come back fer the scouts promotion dae.viewed the whole promotion.kangwei became the ASPL and liqiang became the SPL.congrats.wed gt two tests.chinese & social studiex.sure die de larx.stupid egg came to find mI trouble.said tt I wore ankle socks.wanna give mI demerit points.diaox.like I scared of her like tt sia.but den she very ridiculous lehx.yang meh meh oso neber catch mI fer wearing ankel socks lorx den she anihow catch.wads more ridiculous is tt zhan hui was wearing a real long pair of socks tt dae & she anihow catch him fer wearing ankle socks.diaox.think she crazy lex ba.siaox.gt unit training.scouts also gt training.saw jiawei,jinming & ben again.hmx.ben was dao huh?hahx.aniwae,trained the cadets fer the promotion thingy.shit man.they sooo slack lorx.den I scold them like hell.bit*h gt come fer training.suan lex.chatted wib angelx on the fone.thanx fer accompanying mI.thur gt a*maths test.still ok lorx.dunno how to do the binomial theorem qnx.gt first aid revision fer first aiderx.mI jux went slack cos oso nt I teach wat.sianx.saw dan dI somewhere at 3rd floor.punched him sia.pushed him to the wall den beat him up.hahx.after tt went downstairs practise dance.saw the scouts practising lion dance.jiawei, jinming & ben were here again.oh.it seemed like they had been coming to sch practically everydae huh?haix.minyen.lucky gt u here.think onli u understand how I feel ba.i really hate those ppl hu like to act in front of some special ppl lorx.**pukefri gt first aid duty.haix.b4 tt went hoem wib laogong.lucky she gt come up wib mI sia or else I wouldn’t get mY fone back.thankew laogong.went jP de ljs again.sooo happie lorx.had lunch wib laogong,minyen & yc.after tt went pmk got the same tee as minyen & yc.tt tee was sooo nice.love it sooo much.denise came & we all pia to stadium.was kinda late.tt dae realli super duper bz lorx.sooo many casualties.helped most casulties apply the stupid cream used fer leg cramps.knw why I called tt cream stupid?cos it hurt mY eyes & it burned mY head like wad yixuan had said.hahx.shao xuan very notti lehx.told him better dun go run lex.cos everytime he run,he gotta get injured.fer the first time of tt dae,mI attended to him.den second time he still needa us send stretcher dere carry him sia.hahx.he poor thing.aniwae,hope tt all casualties will get well soon.btw,did I mention tt jiawei,jinming & ben were here AGAIN?hahx.jkjk.jiawei helped yellow hse in cheering.he sooo enthu.in the end,yellow hse realli won the cheering competition.weeess~ sooo happie lorx.cheerx fer angelx.yellow hse was also the overall champion hse.wOws~ we are sooo gd sooo incredible.hahx.mI & denise screamed like hell.went to do the saikang tt the socuts alwaex mention.clear up all the litter tt were left behind.diaox.tupid lorx.npcc very idiotic sia.i mean some ppl larx.tt tupid fat guy said tt they very tired arx.stood there thruout guarding.he sae until like we nt tired like tt.we ran here & there helping the casualties lorx.he is such a freako.**puke went home wib laogong,denise & ivy.ivy very poor thing lehx.encountering some probs nw.hope tt I can get to see the old ivy soon.haix.denise & mr ng went home together.ivy went along wib minyen they all.mI & laogong went to take 99 back lorx.did I mention tt fer the past wk,he had been msging mI?took the same bus wib him & jJ they all lorx.oh.suddenly rmb sth.tt tupid jJ very wat sia.kept calling mI shiman fer the past wk.diaox.he idiotic lehx.feel like bashing him up.l0lx.msging him all the while.chatted wib him on the fone at nite.he called mI.kept toking abt some topics.dunno larx.feel weird weird dex. memoriex flowing back.didnt managed to slp well.ma quarrelled wib mI again.mI onli sent 15msg den kanna a slap liaox.wth.todae is a lousy cum fun cum hurtx dae?firstly,mI meet minyen & yc up in sch at 11am.saw yc on the way dere.haix.she asked mI st weird lorx.she asked mI wad I think of him.cos it gotta do wib her dex.haix.told her I dunno.practised the dance.feel very weird liaox lorx.heard some stuff abt him again.haix.shld I really wait fer him or shld I nt?i alreadi given up in late deC den nw it is like I am falling fer him again.wads wrong wib mI?i cant do tt u knw? Haix.saw yankai in sch.wanna tell her but cant cos she kinda packed wib her class deco stuff huh? Thanx minyen.lub u lotx.thanx laogong too.had ljs again.everyone turned up at ard 1.45 plus.practised as a whole.pia all the way dere cos we late.lucky haiza nt very angri or we all will die sia.haix.i dunno wad to comment abt abi.i realli trusted her in her excuse tt she canut turn up fer the practise in sch cos she gotta tuition at noon.but I am wrg.once I reached there, saw her wib khengmay.both of them were burning red.it is kinda obvious huh?even mY gd frenx are doing these to mI.haix.went to do the flag dae stuff.haix.saw him and company.haix.feeling sooo sick fer the whole of todae.performed the two dances.haix.saw him down dere.didnt dare to look at him much.i am feeling sooo hurtx.dun wanna comment much on wad happen after the dance.aniwae,thanx scoutx fer supporting.thanx weiquin & fengling too.lub ya~ |