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FUHUA FDC07
they may not see this but this is what i wanna say.we came together & form this squad we bonded as one all the hardships all the sweat all the scoldings all the tears all the fun times we came through it all. we have come so far under all sorts of tough trainings, w people quitting & giving up on themselves, w people unwilling to give their all. BUT still, we overcome it all & encouraged one another along this tough journey. we worked as one no one leave anyone behind it had not been easy, BUT we still managed to. let`s continue staying as one. let`s stick our hearts & souls together to face the final hurdle . dont give up. hang on & persevere. we are reaching. let`s give it our all on the 3rdfeb! though there were tymes whereby they can really drive me crazy & super pissed, there were also tymes whereby they really learn from the mistakes they made. to be able to come this far together through all the trainings & being more bonded is already an achievement. on top of this, to win the competition is a bonus. strive hard, focus & give your very best. dont be too nervous & stressed up. do take ample of rest for the next few days for competition is just in another 5days tyme. we can do it! JIAYOU FUHUA FDC07! (: problems problems & more problems
i aint feeling fine afterall.but anyway, thanks my friends for all your concern! lets hope that the tough times will get over soon. it`s getting tougher & tougher each day as it goes by. i`m struggling w my life. problems problems & more problems. ): it had all FAILED.
FAMILY is in a mess.dad is forever finding trouble. he doesnt change no matter how nicely we tell him. he just keeps blaming any other person for all the faults & etc w/o even thinking that most of it is his fault. he`s always being ridiculous at tymes and blast at my poor mum & sis for no reason. bro is getting out of hand too. he`s getting more & more rebellious. got into some serious trouble w the sch a few days back & if he still continues lyke this, we will just have to give up on him. his teachers had been calling me up & complaining about practically EVERYTHING. poor mummy had been so stressed up w her work & she still gotta face the two stupid guys who had been giving the family lotsa trouble. seeing mummy cry made me feel so even more terrible. SCHOOL is just as lousy. i dont seem to understand those lessons despite paying attention & not falling aslp in class. jeanette, eileen & the teachers had to explain to me a few tymes before i can get the picture of what the sources are talking about. do i have anyone to explain to me during examination tyme? besides adding to the fact that i`m always one of those being bullied & people not sparing thoughts for. personal attacks & hurtful comments regarding seat allocation & ... RANDOM ASPECTS i am one who is not capable of doing anything. only others are capable. only another person can do things well for them. no matter how much i dedicate myself & do everything well for them, all the efforts & recognition will sure be given to another person & not me. people may even say that i`m living off the good reputation that others had brought it to. i`m just useless in the eyes of many. just some lousy 10-7 slot. overly sensitive? think too much? nah i dont think so. even if i`m a lil more sensitive than other tymes to you or you or you, it`s because i cherish & i care. it`s because the actions & words said will hurt me tremendously esp when it is said & done by my good friends. you may think that it`s just a small lil matter only & i`m lyke all so emo over it. i`m not lyke emo-ing or feeling so terrible for 1 or 2 problems of mine. what you know may just be one part of my many many problems. friend A know a part of my probs. friend B know another part. friend C know another prob of mine. & so on & so for. nobody knows everything except for myself. nobody understands how difficult it is for me to go through all these. lyke what i told sharon just now, all different aspects & parts of my life had failed in one way or another. now all i`m left w are some good friends, my mum & my sis. that is all that is left of esther. behind my smiles, there are sorrows. behind my laughters, there are tears. behind the back of my head, i know that it is way too much for me to take it. you cant find me. neither can i myself. out of touch, out of control
today during civics, we did a goal setting exercise.under the family section, i wrote: hope that my dad & brother will stop creating trouble both in sch & at home. but ohwells, it has got to happen again. my brother is driving me mad w all his rebellious actions & all the trouble he had found for himself in school. it is getting more & more serious each tyme as it gets by. & he`s getting more & more out of hand. && my dad had been finding lotsa trouble at home too. damnit! i`m breaking down again. i hate it! where are you when i needed you most? you were still not here. I HAD BEEN SO BUSY! & I HAD BEEN REALLY SICK! SCHOOL had been alright so far. tymetable had been quite good. at least it was far better than last year`s tymetable. my mondays, wednesdays and fridays are pretty early released. except for the thursday boring cultural lessons and pc frm 2-430, everything else was alright. ahsoon crashed alot of our lessons too! (: civics tutors changed though. ms chan got pregnant! hahah congrats! (: civics tutor was changed to ms eleen tan. she`s nice (: econs teacher was changed back to ms lim! hahah happy about that too but on the other hand, sad cos ms lai hadda leave us. so far, i HADNT BEEN FALLING ASLP in class. PRAISE ME, QUICK! :D school hadnt drove me mad so dont worry my friends, i`m still feeling alright. (: had been returning to FUHUA for 3days/week since school reopened. it seems to me that i havent even graduate from there. HAHHS. really busy w fuhua trainings. there were unhappy tymes and there were happy tymes too! HEALTH hadnt been great. got the same virus as qx and both of us fell terribly sick. i was sick for a longer tyme? i`m starting to develop phobias for buffets so no more buffets outings yea, qx? LOL. LAST WEEK monday- MC tuesday- still sick but i went sch? thanks to my dearest classmates for your care & concern! loves! (: wednesday- still sick but went fuhua after sch ended. had parade rehearsal and must really thank woei luen for his help! (: thursday- schooling. chest pains; still sick :/ friday- shtn, you hurt me w your words ): it rained the whole day. parade rehearsals were cancelled. prepared some stuff for the booth the next day. had an emo chat. sat- drizzled. stopped. drizzled again. that was the weather for that morning. but luckily, the weather turned out fine for the parade. zhiqian did a great job as the parade commander and redcross did a great job as well. doreen maam even said that we were great! (: thanks to all who made the parade a success! esp to woei luen for assisting and rendering alot of help to me! it was nice working w you & i didnt treat you lyke slave lars. HAHAH we wearing white mah so cant sweep the water off the parade ground. so must ask your ncc to help out. hahhs. anyway, thanks alot! hope to work w you again! (: cca open house was a lil different this year for redcross. there was the ambulance & the manikins for us to exhibit. WOW that was really an eye opener for some of the sec1s. there was also recruitment for girls scouts. the scouts were super naughty to have bullied us and esp ME! those stinky sweaty smelly boys surrounded me at most tymes and once hugged me for fear that i will snatch their targeted sec1s >< my girls had fun cheering & i think they did a great job for the recruitment exercise! CHEERS! (: went for lunch at LJS JP w denise after that. it had been another month ever since i had LJS already. hahh still remembered that last tyme i was so addicted to it that i can go there lyke 5/7 days? HAHHS. caught up a bit w her. took train to bugis to meet up w sharon darl & ouxiang hui for shopping! yay! (: on the way there, picked up a call from buddy. too bad i dont have a fetish for big bags. bugis are full of big bags and no nice clutches :/ but thanks to the two, we went to plaza sing after that and i got my long awaiting nice nice elegant clutch! LOVES(: went on to shop around and bought a nike bag too! WOOHOO! i`m just so HAPPY! [: sharon left early for church. me & ouxiang continued shopping and we saw many nice nice tops! but too bad i`m broke already ): nevermind, i shall buy them within a month! gonna beg mummy for more money. hahaha a lot of malu-ing things happened to me! esp at the accessories shop! LOL. dearest ouxiang accompanied me back in the long long purple than green line train. HAHAH only ouxiang and i understand. (: ohwells, had been thinking for the past two days about the call & sms from buddy. on one hand, i feel superly sad & disappointed. on the other hand, i feel angry. i just dont know how i should feel. i dont know what i`m thinking either. can YOU tell me what i should do? wordpress updated. password for latest post is the same as the password for the previous post too. it`s 2007! tmr sch gonna reopen ): actually i feel a lil excited for school cos it`s the first day and i`ll get to meet my beloved classmates and friends but i just dread schooling lars. the get all so stressed-up esther gonna be back soon. BOO! :/ but owells, tmr schooling gonna be different. 06a01 is down to 14. i`m already starting to miss his presence ): the class will miss him too ): 06a01 will always be w you, ahsoon! (: TODAY went to get my lacoste shoes today! 89bucks flew away~ but nevertheless, i love my shoes! thanks to kaiming and jackie for accompanying me there cos my dearest partner cant make it. my stomach still hurts now. :/ it maybe lyke what he said, didnt have regular meals that is causing my stomach to hurt so much till now. boo let me get well soon alrights? anyway, i completed my holiday assignments for ONCE! LOL. i bet a lot of people must be shocked to see this lars. hahahah esther is always famous for not doing hmk and for once, she did her essay. HAHAH. must thank that pro nagger jiaying too =P got to run. school tmr! goodlucks to those j1s entering jcs tmr and happy schooling to all! (: |