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sorry to all.

lousy com have been down again.

anyway, blog will not be updated unless the stupid HP customer care answers my call and hurriedly come fix my computer.

currently at sher's house for stayover with minyen too so that's why i can get to use the com.

alrights, wordpress in construction! (:
com will be ok by next friday.

meanwhile, do take good care of yourself my dear friends who are still visiting my blog!

esther is a happy girl.

'cos her class is so lovely :]

class spirit is building up.

rest assured it is not too late.

with love, esther's assistant:hui2

it has been quite some days since i am back to blogger once again.
wordpressing is really addictive.
it tunes me to my com everytime i have something to say & i dont know how to express it.
these days i wonder what is wrong with me.
sometimes when i hope for something, it didnt happen.
when it had happened, how i wish it didnt happened.
i just dont know what is wrong.
nevermind if you dont understand, cos i dont seem to understand it too. haha

THURSDAY; 10thmay
LL trip to CBD areas & the esplanade was interesting.
well, it is more like a bonding session with the class instead of some cultural trip.
nevertheless, hope that they had enjoyed themselves there!
most of the photos are with jack! shall post it when they are sent to me! (:

korean food at the nearby restaurant for dinner.
ohman, the servings are big & i ended up donating food to darryl & nic. hahaha

icecream at swensens with msliewjiameng!
i love her so!
she always never fail to make me happy!
the emoness in me is totally gotten rid of by her & the icecream & also, not forgetting, my lovely girls classmates!
thanks partner & the girls! (:

FRIDAY; 11stmay
cancelled all the dates & meetups cos i was going out but in the end, ended up at home.
a full of guilt day!
i am sorry to both of them for the insensitive issue and the ironic issue respectively.
though they kept saying it was not my fault but i felt that i got a part to play too.
SORRY!

SATURDAY; 12ndmay
congrats to jerome for coming in third for his 800m race! (:

saw no.12 at jp & he was in the same theatre as me watching spidey!
the thing that got me so excited when i saw him was the shirt he was wearing:
4CIANS CLASS TEE! ;D
4CIANS, just realized that we havent meet up even for once this year?
LET US MEET UP REAL SOON!!

spidey3 was a fabulous show!
it did not disappoint me at all.
the show is super thrilling, shocked me a few times that i screamed =X, super touching too!
well, i teared at the part when harry came in front of peter & got killed by venom.
the true friendship touched me.

when watching that show, this thought flashed through my mind.
mass media always shows us that type of true bonds exist, be it kinship or friendship.
does it really exist in real life?
will your friend sacrifice his/her life just for you?
sometimes, when people asked me this question, it will leave me speechless.
do you think that this friend will lay down his/her life just for you?
it just saddens me when i cant even answer that question with pride that he/she WILL do that for me.
well,it still leaves a question mark till today.

SUNDAY; 13rdmay
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WUFENG! (:

i was in a dilemma yesterday, up till the moment when i rejected the offer just now.
& i am glad that i made this choice.
i dont want to have any regrets when things turned wrong.
there are still plenty of chances for you next year, esther!
dont be sad that you are giving up this opportunity.

i know opportunities dont come knocking on the door twice but i sincerely hope that they will come knocking again next year.
redcross will always be there waiting for me.
by the way, sorry ahbeng!

uncle is off to india for work! with those bollywood stars to be! HAHAHA
hope he wont come back with those curry smell! =X

with loves,

ESTHER:]

Labels: 06A01, friendship, redcross, spidey

Just So You Know- Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

*CHORUS
Just so you know
This feelings taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I am not
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

*CHORUS

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

*CHORUS

nice lyrics!

on a random note,
sometimes disappointments will derived from higher hopes or when one is looking forward to something and things suddenly dont turn out the way that it had been planned initially.

had been wordpressing lately.
perhaps it gives me the feeling that it is more personal & simpler.
anyway, this blog still gonna be active so stay tuned!

Labels: lyrics

WORLD RED CROSS DAY :]

HAPPY WORLD RED CROSS DAY! :]

it was a miracle that i actually can wake up at 620am when i cant even pull myself out of bed at the usual 7am timing.
i rushed back to fuhua just to recite the redcross pledge with my lovely cadets. [:
& mr goh was being nice enough to continue let us have our mini parade despite insufficient time due to exams going on! (:
well, fuhua redcross have indeed contributed alot this year & of course, climbed to greater heights.
& i am proud of them. :]

anyway, i must thank redcross for giving me this chance to know all my good friends!
redcross is the one that bring us all together.
it is the thing that keep us all bonded to continue rendering our time & service to whatever events & activities that may need us.
volunteers, the spirit of volunteerism will still continue burning strong! (:

this tint of warmth that is coming around me feels great.
i love this kind of feeling.
it is undescribleable.
redcross,
my true addiction <3

it had been so long ever since i stepped into fuhua for morning assembly.
the feeling is just so great.
singing the national anthem at my own ground feels good!
well, we all recognise fuhua as our own, doesnt we?
the feeling is just so different w singing it at the present college now.
4cians, i bet you missed that feeling too!
the feeling will be x1000000 better if 4cians were there w me for morning assembly!

cabbed back to school & by the time i was there, i missed the koh-cist blogger incident!
hist&maths tests were both flunked.
especially maths tests which got me so demoralised & emo. :/
all my subjects aint doing well at all.
sigh, i got this bad feeling coming again.

on a sidenote, 06a01 peace out!
i am sure things will be going on the right track soon!
cos we are a1.

Labels: 06A01, redcross, studies

*SHOUTS HELLO TO MY BLOG*
hellohellohellohellohello! (:

my daily dosage of chocolates have saved me from the Rwanda river of tears & here I am, not being drowned by the river of tears! :]
alrights, I am being lame here. =X
the business cycle, with all the nice ups & all the sad downs will depict my mood clearly.

LAST THURSDAY; 26thapril
received a call from good friend. he is enlisting into NS on sep14 tentatively unless there is any deferment.
busy rushing the whole geog promos paper that i only slept for 1 & a half hour that night.

LAST FRIDAY; 27thapril
i was like a walking zombie due to the lack of sleep deprived from all the rushing of the geog promos paper03.
he got into trouble w the police this time round.
damn.
sorry girls if i shocked you w my tears.

went for yck speech day instead of the EU talk.
the weather wasnt on their side so it was a pity that they couldnt march.
slacked around at yewtee till about 11.

LAST SATURDAY; 28thapril
it was another 9/15 outing! :]
SENTOSA! [:
& i was SO LATE that our schedule delayed by an hour =X
SORRY! ;x

ben&jerrys; newzealand natural; volleyball; dodgeball; monkey; suntanning; throwing people into sea.
HAHA, we had so much fun. (:
all the girls were all thrown into the sea by the super evil guys!
next time it shall be our turns to throw them down (provided that we got the strength to carry them first :x)

the girls:]

the guys:]

went on to lido to have our lunch+dinner at pepperlunch.
& i was the slowest among all. =X
some funny incidents happened after the guys bought the aloe vera cream. hahhs!

in the toilet again! =X

window-shopped at paragon before heading to taka for more snacks.
& well, i am being termed as swensens girl. -_-!!
only A1 will know this internal joke. -.-

<3loves

LAST SUNDAY; 29thapril
tuition-ed my brother.
rested at home to recover all my sleep lost for the whole week.

MONDAY; 30thapril
schooling was as per normal except that some idiotic comments were being made.
& we are still not changing groups for econs. sigh, it is not going to be effective if we dont change groups.

darryl & nic got caught for long hair so after econs, went w the guys for haircut by our very own 2 professionals: han & jer. LOL
you should have seen how professional they were & i bet their two clients are very happy with their haircut. hahha! (:

went back with han, hui & fred. han bared his heart out to us. hope he is feeling better now. (:

the talk with him made me realize some things that are kind of common among all guys. well, some guys are egoistic & they want their pride & thus do not apologise & admit it is their fault when things happened. so if they really do apologise, we should really accept their apologies as these tend to be the most sincere ones.

headed to causeway point with qingxiang & hongyi for dinner.
the cookie crumble icecream at burger king is nice! (:
& the crown is nice too! (:

TODAY; LABOUR DAY!
staying home to recharge myself.
tuitioning brother later.

on a random note,
tears will well up in my eyes everytime i think about that.
cannot rely too much before it becomes really hard to let it go.
treasure all the time now.
nothing is difficult once you set your mind & heart to it.
i need to get out of that emo-ness!

Labels: 06A01, fourteen, sentosa