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my com had been attacked by a virus so before it crashes, i had better do my proj ncos admin stuff & also a lil blogging.

mum had been nagging & scolding me for i had been going home at 10plus, 11pm when there's school the next day. i feel exhausted too but this isnt the time to scold me to make me feel even worse cos she dont understand what i'm going through now. i just hope that she will start showing me support as this is what i needed more at this part of time.

my test results are back. my h2s were done badly. merely passed my international hist & econs by a mark or two & i failed my phy geog. hope that things will go on well for my class.

had proj ncos meeting on fri. hope that the planning will go on well. we went on fine verbally for 3hours too.

went for evac silver modular workshop ytd. had a fun & interesting time there & brought back some learning experience w me too. overall, it was good. as usual, i'm their entertainer there.
some remarks were being made & well, i shant dwell much into it.

bus 16 journey sucks. i felt really terrible.
didnt go for dinner w them though we reached suntec already cos i really wasnt feeling good so i left w yvonne.
felt a tint of warmth talking to her on our way back. i never know that somebody will be in the same shoes as me, experiencing what i;m experiencing too. neither did she know that too. anyway, it felt great to talk to her. not that the others are not good listeners, but it's just that for this topic, nobody else will fully understand what we are going through unless they are 100% in the same shoes as we are. time & workload already makes a difference. anyway, thanks yvonne!

my maternal extended family came over to my house. they really had lots of fun ytd.

i felt just as terrible. but forget it, i'm just a spare.

Labels: virus; spare

currently listening to: whathurtsthemost by rascal flatts. :/

the journeys back are forever irritating esp when i'm in such a good mood.
the floods always have to sabo me & people always have to stare.
whats wrong? didnt you see people cry before? damnit!

anyway, here's something funny that i wanna share.

retard no.1: nic
retard no.2: huihui
retard no.3: shar
together they make the retard family! HAHAHA.
they are all so slow in reacting lars. their slow slow reactions are funny.
this is the only thing that can make me laugh now. :/

i wish to share it w you but the thing is, you are the other party.
the scar is forever there. it's left behind by you.

Labels: retards; scar

CHU YI! (:

it's CHU YI TODAY! WOOHOO! (:

my ahma saved my day from being blind today!

as we were already quite late, tried to rush & in the end, the blur me put the left lens in my right eye & the right one in my left. -_-!
that's not the end. upon reaching ahma house, i was trying to take out my lens & change the lens back into the correct eye but who knows? my right lens dropped onto dont know where while i was taking it out & everyone was frantically trying to help me find my lens & here comes the great hero of the day: MY DEAREST AHMA! she found it despite all of us giving up already. hahaha i love my ahma! :D

house visiting, house visitings & more house visitings! (:
red packet, red packets & more red packets! (:

there was a typo error the other time. this is my NEPHEW.
anyway, my nephew is super cute!

staring in daze

he's so ADORABLE! [:

signing off w loves, esther

Labels: hero

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL! [:

for the past few days had been rushing some adminstrative stuff so had been really busy. sorry to all if i have neglected you in msn or did not reply your sms. at least i feel guilty yea? :x

MON went town-ing w shar & hui to get some presents for V's day. lost 40bucks lars ):
had proj ncos07 meeting on monday at unity sec. it ended kinda late. slacked in yewtee mac to around 11pm waiting for some retard to come back frm town to pass me hmk. cabbed home as my poor knees cant get me back to jurong any faster & ma was already screaming into the phone cos i have got school the next day. :/

TUE went swensens w deedee for dinner & the mushrooms, fish & chips & sticky chewy chocolate still taste as heavenly as before! (: (: (: but i think i needa workout lyke x100 after eating it? ): ): ): but overall, i was really super happy to meet up w deedee & of course, swensens made me happy! :D

WED V's DAY! i have many many valentines alrights? that's YOU YOU & YOU, MY GIRLFRIENDS & BOYFRIENDS! received super sweet presents frm my beloved girl classmates, not forgetting the rose frm han & the sweet gifts & cards & choco frm jmin, yanping, yiyan & many others! LOVES :D

THUR was feeling sick for the whole day? yupps guess it was due to the lack of sleep that i had accumulated for the past few nights doing admin stuff ba. school ended at 6pm for goodness sake. :/

FRI the school performance ended super EARLY. the j1s super poor thing lars. came sch just to sing national anthem. haha met up w the guys for breakfast at jp mac. my fav hashbrowns & iced milo (:
met up w denise & here comes our long awaiting shopping trip! it was a fruitful trip afterall. bought my accessories, top & shoes (: met countless number of familiar faces in all three places that we went- chinatown, bugis & orchard. all three places are FLOODED W PEOPLE. anyway, my forte is really talking & nearly falling. -_-!
doc said my blood pressure is LOW & thus i cant donate blood ):
by the way, hongyi is back frm india! (:

SAT 2 reunion dinners! dinner w my maternal external family was super great! had very heartwarming chats w my cousins, deedee & ahma! I LOVE MY AHMA! :D
i'm still the entertainer in my family [:

i'm so looking forward to tmr! gonna go house visiting w my maternal extended family ! i love their accompaniment! (:
think i gonna rest early. tmr gonna wake up super early to dress up & hadda reach ahma hse by 830. enjoy cny, my dear friends! (:

i'm pretty awake at this hour though i was lyke dozing off in front of the com from 10plus onwards till not long ago?

HAPPY V's DAY TO ALL!
& to all my beloveds, I LOVE YOU ALL REALLY MUCH!
&& to the girls, we rock! thanks for all the super sweet presents! (:

shall post longer posts about V's day the next tyme i blog since i aint in the mood to do so. :/
GOODNIGHTS!

im feeling sick.
i amaint fine.
how strange.

Labels: sick; unusually weird; EMO-ing

I FELL DOWN ): ): ): ): ):
damnit. my knees are hurting so much! :/
but thanks to both missies alvin sir & bettina for helping me clean my wound & dress it yesterday (:

FRIDAY (9thfeb07)
sharon went home earlier cos she was sick. get well soon darl!
went to fuhua for redcross.
i was rushing to fuhua so i jaywalk-ed across the road & some dumbo accidentally banged onto me & i FELL IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD. it was SO DANGEROUS LARS! lucky bus502 stopped just on tyme. & that explains why my knees are still hurting & bleeding so much till today ):

sec1 orientation was alright lars. but the sec3s really gonna buck up & improve on their mistakes. seeing the FDC people made me super happy! i have missed them lots ever since not seeing them so many tymes a week! they presented me a poster & that was SO SWEET! thanks! esp to shiyuan! i really LOVE it alot! :D

met up w jmin & SO SORRY that i was late near to an hour. was caught up w redcross in sch :x we went to shop around for her mum`s present & i bought us two watches! (: was limping around in pain :/ but cant ps my dearest partner last minute mah. aha

Os results are out & many of my beloved friends scored quite well! congrats! (:

SATURDAY (10thfeb07)
HAPPY 19thBDAE BUDDY JINMING! (:
i spent the whole night saying up to do up his card & i accidentally knocked my water bottle which is left UNCAPPED & it wet my whole card! AHHH! all my efforts & tyme & energy spent on doing the card gone! ): ): ):

left house early for evac silver modular workshop. i was so scared initally lars! cos for the past two tymes, i always fell sick & give it a miss & this gonna be the first my first tyme at evac silver & working w new people. & the worst thing is i cant do demo cos my knees are injured! was so scared that david sir will kill me but luckily, he was nice enough & tada~ i`m the admin & the duty trainer for the day.

the classrooms for evac is at the 4th floor & the lift is on leave(HAHA) so poor me hadda climb up & down the stairs w my kneecaps hurting so much! :/ anyway, modular workshop was super fun! the evac people are nice & they made the whole modular workshop seems so interesting & fun! working w new people lyke david sir, ck sir & the 0707 batch was great! i cant wait for the next session! (:
& i found out that the evac sirs are mostly ahbengs :x but they are nice people! (:

went off w bettina & another junior & met the unity cadets on our way back. didnt go for dinner w the evac people cos i needa rush to buy a present or i will SURELY go for the dinner de. :/ but i promise to go the next tyme! (: despite my kneecaps hurting so much, i limped my way to taka then to ps. i just cant seem to find a suitable & nice present for my buddy. :/ but anyway got him a card first. gonna shop for the present again! my hurting kneecaps brought me to his house & handed the card to his daddy. i lost my way there & some idiotic & detesting things happened.
reached home at near to 1130pm or 1145pm? i was totally worn-out!

regarding the unhappy moments of yesterday, i dont wish to mention any.

i got alot of unfinished homework & was just reading nic`s msg & i realised that there is GEOG TEST TMR! my notes are incomplete cos i never go sch that day & i still dont really understand phy geog lars! i`m so dead :/

Labels: buddy jm, hurting kneecaps, redcross

8thfeb 8thfeb 8thfeb 8thfeb 8thfeb ):

i ponned school ytd. :x
& i think i got my retribution today by having stomachache. :/
&& i didnt have tyme to finish up my hist UN sbq test. :/
&&& i was a lil pissed and sad. :/

that sums up my day.

on a sidenote, i am still pissed w her actions & her words. i dont want her to do this to you. i felt really hurt when i see you in this state. i gonna do my best to make you happy. [:

Os results gonna be released tmr!
all the best to all getting their results tomorrow esp my beloved friends & cousin!
JIAYOUS! (:

8thfeb 8thfeb 8thfeb 8thfeb 8thfeb ):
-o8o2o4 1230pm

Labels: the day 04

before my friends kill me cos i gonna blog about another redcross entry, let me first blog about some other impt stuff. hahha (:

HAPPY BELATED BDAE to the following people:
4thjan- yaqing&yixuan
7thjan- siewyi
13rdjan- bernice
17thjan- honglun
19thjan- peihwa&jackson
26thjan- jinhua&kelly
5thfeb- connie&melisa&melvin

jc2 life is not that simple and easy going afterall. trying my best to catch up on whatever work i have missed out but still, its hard. my classmates are pretty alright since there arent any new people who joined the class this year. then again, i missed ahsoon. =/
some of my beloved classmates had changed to be more vocal & etc. & thats really a good sign. zhiliang had been crapping alot in class w his not so funny to himself but funny to us jokes & hweeying had been shooting & suaning me lyke nobody`s business. HAHAHA han had been a lil more sensitive (in a good sense) i must say & nic had been a lil more crazy. think it`s the after effects of being an ogl? he became a lil more retarded than usual too =X hahah that`s mainly the changes in my class now.

things in my family arent getting any better. but i aint falling down & i gonna stay strong to keep my family going cos my beloved classmates are so lovely & so sweet to share my burdens w me. not forgetting some others lyke jmin & qx too! LOVES [:

things hadnt been going on well for my friends too. some of their family members & extended family had been admitting into hospitals and stuff lyke that. hope that they will all be fine too.

hadnt been meeting up w my lovely girls. did i even meet up anyone of them? i really wish for more tyme to be given to me so that i can meet up w them. i miss them i miss them i miss them ):

i gave love fiesta a miss last saturday. love fiesta can really help to bond our whole class closer as experienced while doing preparations for love fiesta. really SORRY to my beloved classmates cos i really cant leave my squad at that point of tyme as they are preparing for the next round. but i`m really glad that i had such nice & understanding classmates. glad that they had fun pumping the so so many balloons last saturday. CHEERS to 06a01! [:

to one of my bestest girlfriends, i know that it is kinda hard when people kept making those ugly remarks & comments but you know you gonna stay strong. maybe we shld try our very best to take it on a lighter note lyke how we took these comments if it were to be said by somebody else. it`s hard to take it on a lighter note since the person weighs more important than another person but we must still try our best! i believe that we can do it, cant we? we gonna fight through it, darl! (:

on a sidenote, i met up w this friend just now for a talk at my void deck. it really hurts me terribly to see this friend in this state now. STOP hurting my friend! ): ): ): ): ):
wordpress-ing =S

ON TO REDCROSS STUFF
for the past 2months plus, i had been really busy w redcross stuff esp w fdc trainings. now that fdc is over, i really need tyme to adapt back to my lifestyle of returning to fuhua only once a week instead of at least 3 times a week for both unit & FDC trainings. sometymes i even go back 4tymes a week so that explains why i always disappeared after school, my dear classmates. ohwells my efforts didnt go down the drain at all. i must really say that i`m pretty touched by what some of the cadets said & did.

they brought me alot of sadness. they made me really furious at tymes. made me all so pekchek & so irritated w myself for still feeling sad & disappointed over them even though trainings have ended & sometymes this kinda feeling dragged all the way back home & to school.
BUT then again, they brought me alot of happy & memorable tymes too. they really proved to me that unity is developing between them. from every individual who dont care much about others to a united squad who always receive punishments & etc together. it had not been easy for them to come this far. you can see the tremendous change of attitude in them! from the easily give up on themselves people to the persevere & stay strong people.

i know that if this tyme round we never win the competition, they gonna be so SUPERLY DISAPPOINTED cos they really put in alot alot of efforts. i also gonna be so disappointed cos i really gave my heart & soul for this competition. but in the end, we won! we didnt just win because of the squad`s efforts, but also to those whom had been supporting us all this while, being there to help us out whenever we need them. these people are remarkable! (:

was reading yixuan`s blog just now. thoughts kept flowing in.
-this may be the last tyme we are doing this for the juniors- it made me cried when i heard that. this is NOT gonna be the last tyme if you are free to help out next tyme, my dear yixuan & yongseng. you can always come back whenever you are free to help out. but seriously speaking, i`m really really very heartened & touched by whatever they have contributed. i`m saying this from the bottom of my heart. yupps(:

FDC trng (7/2) tmr. 3pm-6pm. Attire: Mufti with boots.

this msg shocked me. but well this msg is NOT for real. hahaha anyways, i really missed FDC trainings. i bet they gonna miss my scoldings lots. i think even the other ug teachers & instructors & cadets gonna miss my frequent scoldings & my presence in fuhua. they also said that i`m super fierce lars, lyke some sergeant training the privates in the army. HAHA

maybe it`s because i gone through everything right from the start to the end w them & hence, i have got so much to say, got so into the FDC feeling. hahaha but whatever it is, i just miss them. up till today, i`m still feeling all so HIGH & EXCITED whenever i talk about FDC. =x
i truly miss my dearest FDC07 people. cindy hilary huiling jeslynn jiamin jiaqi joanne kaiting madiana nada radhiah shiyuan shujian suanjoo xiangyi xiaowen yingshuen zhiqian. not forgetting my two beloved graduates too, yixuan & yongseng!

we shared alot of memories together. the memories of our tough PT trainings, all the crawlings & jumpings & hentak-ings, the lunches we had together, the talks we shared, the crazy cheers we came up with, all the pusings & hormats & etc. the memories of fuhua FDC07 will stay. definitely.

Labels: 06A01, redcross

WE ARE THE WEST CHAMPS! (:

YAY! I REALLY LOVE THEM! :D

BACK FROM FDC07 w a SUPERLY GOOD MOOD!
FUHUA GOT SECOND IN WEST!
& mind you, we got into the TOP8 FOR NATIONALS!
WOOHOO!!! that seems to be unbelievable yea?
but still, they came together & created this miracle as a squad.
people say that we cant make it but we did.
we proved them wrong & proved to those people who had been looking down on us.
SHOO if you wanna look down on us. hahah
but owells, this squad is getting more united & united each day. even some VIs said that there is really unity between all the members. (:

FUHUA FDC07, you are the champs in my heart!
you guys just rocks so much when you are up there on the competition ground.
though there were one or two mistakes made, you guys still managed to maintain your coolness.
arm swings were coordinating well, bangs quite good, quite focused too! timings were LOUD! (:

SPECIAL THANKS TO:
1) all graduates who had been coming down for trngs esp yongseng & yixuan. these two fellas stayed up the whole night when the rest of you were sleeping to polish & touch up on your boots. & these two had always been rendering me a lot of help.
2) all seniors who had wished us all the best & gave us moral support.
3) YOs!
4) welfare i/cs for the delicious breakfast
5) adrian, cheemeng & woei luen for teaching the commander some precious commanding lessons.
6) supporters for giving moral support to the squad today
7) FUHUA FDC07 SQUAD THEMSELVES! :D

i say fuhua from the west (echo)
i say fuhua is the best (echo)
i say fuhua beats the rest & in the west we are the best!
*tune of myojo maggie mee*
FUHUA!!

Labels: FDC07, redcross