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eestherr.blogspot was opened to jot down the bits and pieces of my life, to accomodate my mindless musings and the daily notes which I wish to remember.

Add on to my memories, will you?

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A beautiful rainbow to paint the grey away.

Just changed my blogskin and tidied the layout this morning. A fresh look to start jotting down the happenings in my life again. Makes this place looks more lively. I haven't got the time to do up the links section (maybe I should just link a few people. It can be quite a hassle to manage the links when people keep changing their urls :/) and the tagboard is always an issue. To put it up or not, whether I have the time to manage it or not, it's always an issue. Shall give myself a few days grace to think about it. Ain't any hurry.

One major happening in my life that took place last friday (also bettina's 21st!). I finally took off my metallic braces and I have straight teeth now! Hurrays! :D It's finally out of my mouth after 1 and a half years. Though wearing retainers suck & it's super troublesome that I have to take it out before every single meal, it beats having my old crooked teeth. It was simply atrocious last time. Shall take the issue of wearing retainers on a more positive note, it can help me to shed some fats since I will think thrice before snacking (taking out and wearing retainers is troublesome).

As mentioned in my previous entry, my fourth finger is injured and indeed, it turned out much worst today. I'm still typing with 9 fingers and that finger of mine is super swollen. It's making my left hand swell a little too. :/ And as a result, I went to pay the chinese sinseh a visit after work just now. Couldn't join Rechies in the end. Sorry guys! ): Anyways, hopefully the swelling will ease tomorrow. It's hard to do things properly and efficiently, with only 9 fingers active.

Shall end my relatively long entry and head to bed. A long but fulfilling day tomorrow. Heading to gram's place before starting work at 1pm. Hopefully the naughty kids don't drive me crazy. & Htht with sharon over dinner at Old Town White Coffee tmr. Definitely something worth looking forward to. (p/s. Hope that the other R house councillors enjoy themselves at East Coast Park tmr! On a random note, how I miss the last two times I went there. :/)

I guess it's just me. I shouldn't have done anything in the first place. I realised that I still feel for it very deeply even till now that I'm re-reading through the convo. I guess it just decoded the password for my bank of emotions. This isn't something that when good things happen in your life, it will balance up the happy vs sad mood balance. No matter how many good things are happening now, I guess unless it's fully resolved, it will always come back to haunt, and bring along many tears with it. I'm finding it hard to glue the broken pieces together. ): I guess it's just me. I don't know how to face this whole thing, balancing my emotions, crashed expectations and myself. ))):

~~I'm sorry for everything. It just lies in me.~~

Labels: fresh look, happenings, reflections, straight teeth(:

\the chocolates left outside.

I so wanted to blog for the past week but has been really packed with emotions, tuition&work&meetups&nightsout for the entire week, the former being packed throughout the week (esp the first half) and the latter, throughout the week.

Many have talked to me but I decline to elaborate on my previous post. Thanks all for your concern, but I won't disclose any details about it except to my close friends cos maybe inside me, I still feel that things may perhaps turn out for the better. Somehow, deep in me, I'm still holding the tinge of hope close to me. Whether it does/does not, I'm giving all I can. I believe it's all up to the other party. That's esther I guess. No matter how hard she falls every time, she doesn't give up hope just then cos she believes in one thing, "you will when you believe".

Haven't got the time to blog about Arts Camp & I'm heading for precamp after work tonight to join the rest of the Rechnies & R house! In short, it was a blast. :D Shall blog about it when I'm back from oweek precamp.

Anyways, I have changed my hairstyle last Monday. I guess whenever I feel really down, I'll change a new look to perk myself up. And this time, it's no exception. To those who have seen my new hairstyle, congrats! To those who have not, wait till you see me! (: Or maybe, catch it on facebook.

Got to go pack my bag for precamp before I head off to work! Shall be back to blog about my life and everything else soon!

Labels: reflections

Came across this in one of the documents in my lappie. Found it to be rather meaningful.

What do you take away from this?

There was once a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone except for her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her.

She told her boyfriend, "If only I could see the world, then I would marry you."

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.He asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"

The girl look at her boyfriend and realised that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She didn't expect it at all. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note which said, "Take good care of your eyes my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine."

Labels: reflections

It shall be pulled through.

I think my previous entries have raised quite some concern. Thanks to all. No worries, I'm fine now. It will be solved, in the best way it can be, I'm sure. (:

I'm going to be away again tonight till next wednesday (if I managed to get leave for tuesday & wednesday) for Arts Camp! Not really feeling very prepared for it. I guess my busy schedule for the past week just chews up all my enthusiasm & preparedness. Ohwells. Been slogging myself out for tuition and work every single day until I'm going bonkers already. There's really no time to relax myself out at all. :/ But I'll be back to the High me tonight/tmr when the camp starts!

After Arts Camp, I really need to slow down the pace of life. Sometimes, when my schedule gets so really packed up to the brim, every single day, it gets really draining. Not really meeting my objective of making it fulfilling. For the entire june, I have been away for camps for more than 3weeks! Just how long can my body take it man. But ohwell, I guess sometimes it's not only a responsibility, it's also about the commitment and passion that drives me to go camps, one after another. Stay strong, I guess.

Recently, I have been thinking about my feelings. I don't know how to approach it anymore. Let nature take its course I guess.

Some photos before I head off for work! More up on facebook already!

defiance against gravity