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		shine the limelight on me esther Twentyone next March25. nus arts(: ♥ Lovelies&Besties ♥ Redcross ♥ Htht(s) ♥ Chocolates&Icecream ♥ Me-time ♥ Making people's day a better one /.A beautiful rainbow to paint the grey away.

about this blog eestherr.blogspot was opened to jot down the bits and pieces of my life, to accomodate my mindless musings and the daily notes which I wish to remember. Add on to my memories, will you? tagboard Your tagboard here, preferably a skinny one with a width of not more than 138px. affiliates friend friend friend friend archives December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 April 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 December 2009 credits Design: doughnutcrazy Icon: morphine_kissed Do credit accordingly if you changed the icon.		It shall be pulled through. I think my previous entries have raised quite some concern. Thanks to all. No worries, I'm fine now. It will be solved, in the best way it can be, I'm sure. (: I'm going to be away again tonight till next wednesday (if I managed to get leave for tuesday & wednesday) for Arts Camp! Not really feeling very prepared for it. I guess my busy schedule for the past week just chews up all my enthusiasm & preparedness. Ohwells. Been slogging myself out for tuition and work every single day until I'm going bonkers already. There's really no time to relax myself out at all. :/ But I'll be back to the High me tonight/tmr when the camp starts! After Arts Camp, I really need to slow down the pace of life. Sometimes, when my schedule gets so really packed up to the brim, every single day, it gets really draining. Not really meeting my objective of making it fulfilling. For the entire june, I have been away for camps for more than 3weeks! Just how long can my body take it man. But ohwell, I guess sometimes it's not only a responsibility, it's also about the commitment and passion that drives me to go camps, one after another. Stay strong, I guess. Recently, I have been thinking about my feelings. I don't know how to approach it anymore. Let nature take its course I guess. Some photos before I head off for work! More up on facebook already! defiance against gravity k with sharon! (: ECP! ULP 2009 TRAINERS (: ULP 2009 ALPHA TRAINERS (: supposed to be only 4 of us. -shakes head at the head behind- haha batchies (: trainers' warcry (: formation for handshake (: with denise & leonard (: successful jumpshot after a few attempts (: estee note tin (: Till then, much missed! P/s. 4/7! 3 more to go! Labels: camps, photos, reflections Posted on: Friday, June 26, 2009 Posted at: 6/26/2009 11:04:00 AM I feel like hitting the beach again, walking on the coarse yet soft sand, letting the water run in between my toes and enjoy the cool breeze. I seriously need another walk there. I really need to let my hair down. And on a random note, I just chopped my fringe today. It was a rash decision after the 1hour walk from jurong point back home. Such long walks doesnt really seem long on the days I feel down and the road ahead just seems so endless. Cos at the end of the walk, I know for sure that the hump is still there. Such long walks home are especially good when you really need to let your tears flow naturally after holding it back the entire day instead of doing it in crowded places, like taking a bus back home and etc. But all in all, I'm with my bangs now. Bangs always make people look like dolls? Just being random. I'm in love with the climb by miley cyrus. The lyrics is awesome. Oh, I realised that I haven't caught Hannah Montana yet. Guess I won't be able to catch it already. Don't know why I suddenly posted here even though I haven't been blogging even in my private blog since last month? 2nd post of the day already. Too many things running through, too much to be felt. Shall end it here. Till then, loves. Posted on: Friday, June 19, 2009 Posted at: 6/19/2009 11:36:00 PM Just how far does it take to make it right? I'll go that far. When it all falls apart, the final easiest solution that doesn't require you to be confused and irritated with the way things are and questioning the reasons behind why it's you will be used as the final resort. Though it's the easiest solution that can be said, it's one of the hardest to be done. Considering that I'm someone who's full of feelings and being all so emotive, it's hard. Losing the people around us is never an easy thing to get through for me. I'm not sick of it, neither do I feel that it has been all a disappointment. It hasn't been. More often than not, sometimes, I'm always taken aback by the surprises and nice things happening around. We are all humans, you and I both make mistakes every day. But I hope it won't get us down. Long as we stand up and fight through all obstacles till we are dead, we'll be left with no regrets of not even attempting in the first place. We may win this tough war and it toughens us as we walk through the many chapters of life that is lying ahead of us. But if there is really left with no other choices/no hopes that things will turn out better, I'll leave. All in all, I hope everything will be fine. Missed the joy and the laughters. Let it be fine. Stay strong. P/s. I'm typing nonsense that I can't even find my stand in these few chunks of paragraphs that I've been typing. Perhaps cos it's past 2am and I had a long day of work. :/ Ohwells. Posted on: Posted at: 6/19/2009 01:59:00 AM