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it is the last day of 2006 already. before i sum up my whole year and touch on my wishes for next year, let me first blog about things that had happened for the past few days. 27th DEC06 fuhua unit trng. fdc trng. dont wish to blog much about it. just hoping that they can learn and change for the better. took bus rides again =/ 28th DEC06 went down to HQ to return the logistics despite the rain. i forgot what else happened. =/ 29th DEC06 trng was a lil better? the 7 who came up to talk really spoke everything that i wanna tell the unit. (: fdc trng was a lil better too. let this continue, pls. went for sakura buffet w qx, hongyi and bettina. renewed my deployment after many days of serious considerations. HAPPY BDAE YANKAI and ASHLEY! [: loves and huggs! (: 30th DEC06 i borrowed another book frm the lib. hope that it will be a nice book! (: jiaying is a pro nagger :x 31st DEC06 i going nowhere for countdown cos i`m sick. my stomach hurts so much ): but i think my family had booked me to go boonlay? HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE TO ALL! sch is reopening in another 3days ): i realise that 2006 hadnt been an easy year for me. new journeys are being embarked. from sec sch to jc. from a senior to a VI. changes had been made to my life too. people come and go. FAMILY gone through a lot esp that my dad had been finding a lot of trouble throughout the year. brother had also been quite problematic. had been receiving complaints from the sch for so many donkey tymes. but despite all the trouble, wanna apologise to them for tolerating me whenever i feel so stressed up and throwing my tantrums around. just hope that my dad will not find so much trouble and brother will be more guai in school. FRIENDS lost a friend this yr but had also made a lot of new friends too. some new close ones; sharon, qingxiang, alice. some that have been made stronger; jmin, kaiming. some had been drifting; shant mention who. hahhs friendships had been complicated. some tried to sow discord and tried to strain some of our friendships but luckily, things are back on the right track again. some friends had just disappeared and stepped out of my life due to some heavy commitments. though you have heavy commitments, you can still make an effort not to disappear? ohwells, they have disappeared. but when they need you, they will reappear again. i`m disappointed in friendA(him) and friendB(her). as for the rest, lets make our friendships stronger! cheers to all friends who had been by my side all these while and those who had been showing your care and concern for me! (: REDCROSS my new chapter of my journey embarked this year. it brought me a lot of fun and laughter though there were sad and stressed up tymes too. it had also allowed me to know a lot more nice friends and cadets out of which i earned myself another good and trustworthy friend as mentioned above. but also because of redcross, i had lost a friend. let`s hope that things will turn out fine. FUHUA: seeing the sec3 batch of NCOs taking over and the sec4 batch stepping down, going thru w them all the good and bad tymes, having more and more problems piling up, all these hadnt been easy for all of us definitely. but well, we have managed to go through so much. a few cadets had made me really touched when i read their messages. they told me that they will become more diciplined, more bonded and better of everything else. we had gotten this far together and we wont leave anyone behind. yupps i wont give up on them cos they are MY cadets. we will bring fuhua to greater heights and not let anyone look down on us. JIAYOU! (: SCHOOL/ STUDIES i have made a on a sidenote, i miss 4cians05 ): it all seemed just lyke last month that we all graduated from fuhua together, standing on the chairs and running to the stage to sing the graduation song. i miss our names being written on the board by mschan for not doing our english comprehension papers and summaries. i miss every morning hiding from ms wong and ms cockroach fearing that we will be caught for not tucking in our shirts and having short skirts. i miss mrchia giving us lots and lots of maths assignments everyday. i miss ms ek`s lessons whereby almost the whole class will fall aslp except for a few. i miss mr ng`s loud and low voice and his walking around of the whole class during lessons. (he cant even stand still for more than 5min lars! hahah) i miss 4cians ponning sissy chong`s maths class during headstart prog. i miss 4cians05! i have learnt to let go things that doesnt really belong to me. memories will still stay though. (: as for next year, i just hope for my top 5wishes in my wishlist to be fulfilled. yepps that`s enough. to all who had accompanied me through this long year, esther really wanna say a big THANKYOU! loves! :D wishing for the day to come
after all that had happened today, i felt weak, helpless.mistakes were being repeated tyme after tyme. things dont seem to go right. everything seem to always go back to square one. i once saw a glimpse of hope in you all. but nw, the glimpse of hope is diminishing. let it relight. let it glow. i`m waiting for the day to see it relight strongly and glow again. p.s. special thanks to yankai, yixuan, nannytan and yongseng! a decision to be made
alrights this bad dream woke me up from my sleep just now. it`s the SECOND tyme i`m having this dream already. is this a hint or something? in less than 5days, i hadda make up my mind. i will need to think thoroughly because i dont wanna regret whichever choice i make. on a sidenote, i miss the old everyone. the everyone who do not have as many commitments as before. the everyone who we share the old good tymes w. why do the old tymes always seem so good? P.S. my HP is currently still turned OFF. sorry if i never reply any of your msges. if wanna contact me, feel free to send in your sms-es. i will reply after 1130pm tonight when i turn on my phone. or if you wanna call me, do call me anytyme after 1130pm (: elephant-monkey-octopus ): echo-mike-oscar
up till now, i`m still very awake.i never catch a wink of sleep last night. starting to feel echo-mike-oscar again late at around 2am? watched those echo-mike-oscar shows to make myself ___ that gonna make me feel much better? knock knock who`s there? anyone there? nah, i dont think so. enough of my crap. i think i should go to bed now. MERRY XMAS!
i`m HAPPY now cos i have got a great great xmas present this yr.we are finally back to crazy terms after so many donkey days. that`s you, my dearest partner! MERRY XMAS TO ALL! loves (: HOME-d another day of rest at home followed by gng jurong point at night w my family. it`s finally another family day out. i gonna be filial to go out w them or my parents gonna nag at me again for not gng out w them for donkey years. by the way, this gonna be my temporary blogskin for the tyme being. it`s christmas eve! wonder if nice and handsome SANTA be dropping by my house tonight 12am [; I WISH FOR more bondings more of EVERYTHING more <3 happiness when shared is doubled, sorrows when shared is halved. OKKAY here`s my promised post for the past 11days that i have not blogged about. every single day before today was a really packed one and that explains why i havent been blogging for so many donkey days. 12-14th DEC06 went work on the 12nd. that`s my last day! yay! ohyah thanks tong! (: went for unity camp. that was really a fun camp. learnt a lot of things frm sir and his cadets too! had some first tyme experiences there and also, they have got themselves a classic history. AHA. shant blogged about it (; but really thanks to sir and his cadets for the enjoyable tyme in the camp! the rest about them is being blogged in my wordpress. (: ohyah. before i forget, thanks nicTAN for helping me out during the second night of the camp w the vegetarian food thingy! and also for listening to me pouring my woes out that night too! (: 15th DEC06 slept for 17hours straight after breaking camp the day before? ahaha. stayed at home to do up the admin stuff for the mass accred on the following day 16th DEC06 went AES for west mass ftdrill accred. thanks to all instructors who helped out in the accred! yepps went for dinner after which kenny sir sent me home. thanks nicTANG for carrying the heavy logistics up all the way to my doorstep! (: i sincerely apologised for the mistakes that i made. but i will learn so do continue to guide me (: 17th DEC06 went for VIP0707 campfire! seeing those VIs-to-be made me thought of the tymes i had in my VIP camp 9months ago. but this new batch of VIs-to-be are really a bunch of talented batch! their campfire performances were really funny and interesting! hahah chatted w some other seniors and batchmates after the campfire. went for supper w qx, loretta, lixuan, alvin and chowhung at bedok and we missed the last train by 4minutes! ahhh! chiong cab back and reached home at 1am+ not forgetting to meet this friend at my void deck. haha the blur me left my keys and ipod w loretta! =X 18th DEC06 went for fuhua training. hope that they can really learn and absorb those things that i said. i really wish for them to learn. 19th DEC06 i`m FINALLY AT HOME! =X HAPPY BDAE nicTAN! [: 20th DEC06 woke up early to meet up w qx for the recce at macritchie. SORRY that i was late for an hour. mama dont allow me to go out lars. =s alright the recce trip was abandoned soon after we walked about 1km? cos the place is really flooded and so, we left the place. cancelled the hiking trip for the fdc squad as hadda consider the welfare of the cadets. though i know that they will be disappointed. but anyway, thanks qx for accompanying me! (: went junction8 and we walked around the place for many many rounds lars! hahhs went back yewtee to have our lunch and well, it`s rotting tyme for me frm 3-6pm! nearly died out of cold and boredom at yewtee mac. met up w hongyi and together, the three of us went for dinner at seoul garden in causeway point. dinner was expensive and if i continue spending so much, i will really go broke. HAHA. 21st DEC06 as the hiking trip for fdc07 squad was cancelled, we have decided to have our contingency plan. thanks to yixuan and yongseng for planning the games! it had definitely been a fun and superly taxing their energy and tiring experience for them. i myself enjoyed it a lot! (: went unity to take my keys and ipod frm qx. after their fdc trng, bettina, qx and me went to food court to chat. proceeded on to mac for dinner after 45min of crapping in the food court. some of the NCOs were there too. left mac at 8pm. i waited for the stupid bus 198 for 40min! -.- HAPPY BDAE AHSOON! [: 22nd DEC06 initially planned to visit this friend at ntuc but decided not to. my brother told me he`s working there. yepps =/ went wisma to get my lovely brown tanktop frm wenlin! (: met up w some fo the class peeps at cityhall. but as usual, the people who turned up are the usual ones. hahah my pw group is fabulous! yay! but too bad, eileen cant join us. yepps me, sharon, ahsoon, jer, darryl and han went for dinner at marina square. it`s at seoul garden AGAIN. yes AGAIN. this tyme round it`s more expensive lars. saw audrey there too! nic came to join us soon and after dinner, we proceeded to partyworld at orchard. it`s SINGING TYME! jeanette and huihui joined us after their training! (: alrights the place is lyke kinda smoky lars. not as bad as i thought it would be. they sang really well. my shyness have yet again stopped me from holding the mike to sing. =X but in the end, i still sang two songs. [: gave the class their presents! hope they will lyke it esp my fab pw group! thanks sharon for your sweet gifts! (: cabbed home again cos i missed the last bus by 6minutes. HOME SWEET HOME at 0004. i missed the curfew tyme by 4minutes! but luckily, mama was sleeping soundly when i reached home. HAHAH. by the way, i`m going broke. spent 129bucks ytd! =/ i`m feeling so lethargic lately. i need my sleep ): some dumbo is trying to test whether i have brain or not by playing tic tac toe -.- how can deduce whether somebody is smart if he/she wins the game? that stupid dumbo distracted me from blogging lars. BOO mr sim! i make sure i win you the next tyme! :D p.s. my english is more pro than you can? [: alrights alrights a lot of people had been nagging and nagging at me to update. i promise to update by tmr kkays? gonna meet up w my dearest class later! (: DAMN IT. i hate myself for being so careless to make those two mistakes. sorry sir. i didnt perform up to standard. ): p.s. gonna blog the rest in my wordpress tmr. i`m just so drained out now =/ completed and compiled the bronze master score sheet already. left w the silver one for tmr. by the way, thanks to all instructors who came to help out in the mass accred today. THANKYOU! alrights i`m here for a quick post before i go packing my camp bag and stuff and off to camp tmr! been in genting for the past wk. shall post the pix when they are being sent to me. (: in brief, the usual things that i do everyday is genting will be buffets, buffets and more buffets. shopping shoppings and more shoppings! hahhs came back sick as usual and there`s fdc trng today. this is followed by maths tuition for zhenhui that dumbo ass. AHAH he enjoyed my tuition lars! i bet his friends did too. anyway i`m really gng to kill micky, that dog of his! *evil* heheh. 12DEC06- halfday work. unity sec camp 13DEC06- unity sec camp 14DEC06- fuhua fdc trng 15DEC06- rest day 16DEC06- mass accred at aes i gonna be so damn busy cans? next wk gonna have fdc trngs, unit trngs, recce w the class, fdc07 outing, class xmas party and some meetups w some of my girlfriends and some others. i`m not a TO sharon, yankai, alice, minyen, sher, jiaying, peiwen, yanping, cps peeps, and some others, i have not forgotten that i still needa meet up w you all. but i will try to squeeze out tyme here and there in the next two wks yea? loves (: sidenote: thanks shiyuan for the purply sweet scented gift that you got for me after your china trip. it is really very sweet of you! (: MONDAY went for fdc trng. reached school at 645 hoping that I will see something though I knw that I wouldnt get the chance because it had already left but I kept telling myself that if I can really see, it still means that there`s fate. but too bad, the thing isnt there anymore. hahhs forget it. PT at the canal and blahhs. went for lunch w connie and minyen. it had been more than 5months ever since I last stepped into JP LJS. hahaa I still remembered the last tyme was w my class people before we went for JJ`s talentyme. ahaha a lot of memories there w lots of people. esp that particular table when I was having lunch w minyen, yanping and peishi on the 8thfeb 05. ahhh! forget it. it`s all the past already. why am I saying all these?! =/ alrights alrights. was supposed to shop in imm w connie but some psychotic idiots were stalking us! so we had fun running and hiding inside GIANT and both our reactions were fast alrights? HAHAH. this kind of chasing and hiding and running is so super exciting lars! can spice up our lives too! but those idiots spoilt our shopping plan in imm! ARGHS! nevermind, gonna find tyme to shop w connie again! (: here`s me and connie! (:
forgot already =/ work work and more work! but luckily, applied for early leave. ended work at 2pm and went yewtee to meet up w yiyan cos we needa go unity sec for evac lessons. evac lesson was quite fun and the cadets were all quite nice. ahahah  some TIRED-TO-MOVE dumbo was late for half an hour lars. he suggested that we take the 190 transisland bus. ohman! the bus is really jerky and luckily i never vomit. hahah. well we were late for dinner for 1 hour! SORRY! went pasta mania for dinner and stupid jer ordered wrongly for me. he ordered COUNTRY baked pasta instead of OCEAN baked pasta. in the end, he hadda pick all those capsicums out for me. hahah enjoyed the talks and laughters though majority of the laughters all derived from teasing me >< went for pool after dinner. sharon went home first cos she needa meet up w her friend. SORRY TO JER for having such a difficult tyme teaching me pool :x had an emo-ing chat w darl*. this chat made us both thought of a lot of memories. I think it will be best if we keep this memories at the back of our minds. at least it wont remind me of the past. had conference w the TIRED-TO-MOVE dumbo after that. nice chat! (: THURSDAY went for fdc trng again. attendance is better already. just hope that it will be good from next training onwards.their drills are improving. but whatever it is, I just hope to see improvements in their attitude, team bonding and team spirit. played some games w them after trng. they finally tasted my power. hahhs my screams! FRIDAY worked again. it was Sharon`s last day at work. so envy her can?my last day of work will still have to be more than a week later on the 13rd. ): SATURDAY slacked at home for the whole day ;x i missed pw-ing =/ HAPPY BDAE MR NG! (: SUNDAY i overslept and in the end never go to see the standard chartered run :x today is the 3rd dec. two months from nw, it`s fdc already! hope that fuhua will work hard towards this! later gng to my niece`s one year old bdae party! TO SUM UP FOR MY WHOLE WEEK, not all things are going right. some stuff are going wrong.if I told you about it, you should knw. but whatever it is, i`m going to take things lightly first cos I dont wish for it to affect me that much. I dont wanna feel that terrible now because I dont have the tyme to. so please, stop doing all these stuff to me. I would greatly appreciate it if you will stop. thanks! yepps I will learn to forgive and to forget. Thanks denisee and ahsoon! (: SIDENOTE: i`ll be leaving for msia from TUESDAY-SATURDAY or SUNDAY. BON VOYAGE to those going overseas! SEE YA AGAIN IN ANOTHER WEEK`S TYME! (: anyway here`s a picture of me if you missed me in this one week! HAHAH |
