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-3 down and 3 more to go :/ something funny that i came across w. mememe: how`s your zoo trip? yankai: hehe. FUN. but the animals didn't get excited after seeing me..they looks boring, perharps i shld have enter their cage to hv some fun! hah. it`s funny cans? today gonna be out again. to attend some wedding dinner. needa help out w the preparations maybe? anyway, ytd was damn bad. maths was difficult :/ but well mrleow was right. if you put in lesser efforts for ur h1 subjects when you never even put in a lot of efforts for h2 subjects, how can you perform well? went to bed w an empty stomach. hurry let this dready promos pass -2 down 4 more to go :/ there`s something wrong w cbox. lucky it`s not only mine that is lyke that. before i forget, i had better reply all the tags first. HWAHWA: the shiman that you always see will be back soon i hope. anyway thanks for your oil (: PEIWEN: xiaomei, i will try to stay happy and get on w my life de. thanks! miss ya too! QIZHEN: i really need your encouragement at this tyme :/ thanks! i missed the tymes we practised maths tgt ): ASHLEY: thanks ash! hope that i can make it ba. yepps i still rmb we owe you haagen =X YANPING: nah i bet you will be the one confessing. i will NIC: thanks! you too jiayou for promos esp for maths (: FREDDY: thanks fred! yepps i got overflowing oil in my jiayou tank nw. ZHANHUI: yepps 25o3 aries babies will not give up so easily de. we must keep on gng. jiayou for promos too! (: ANGELA: thansk gela! your words always enlightens me. hah unwinding (: DAPHNE: thanks for your oil! (: WUFENG: buy me a cow to pull me thru. DENISE: nah he`s MINE and i`m HIS. YUANHAO: thanks yuanhao! yepps i`m super stressed lars. next wk will be even mroe jialat :/ but anyway, that`s really nice of you. QINGXIANG: aww dont be sad copycat. hah you copied mine rights? see, even denise agreed w me :P anyway, i`m the chengyu queen (: chengyu queen (: surfacing problems. just kill me. that explains my mood. it is on this swing nw. swinging and swinging. i got my own problems already and all these must happen. my parents are forever quarrelling. it`s not those small quarrels. it`s those that made the whole family break up into pieces. it`s those that made me dont wanna go home. did i mention before that i`m the head of the house? yepps head of the house. the one who is in charge of EVERYTHING. when my parents quarrel, i`m supposed to stop them. supposed to pull the family back together. when my sister gets poor results for her maths, i have to give her extra tuition when i dont even have the tyme to cope w my own work. i have to mark her papers, correct her and give her tuition. my brother had been quite rebellious these days. i`m always the one getting all the complaints from the teachers. my parents never get it. i`m always the one who gets the scolding from his teachers when he performs badly in school. be it his attitude or work. i`m the one who has to tutor him for maths and science. just lyke my sis, i had to mark his papers, correct him and tutor him. adding to that, i have to correct him for his bloody attitude. i have to make sure that he dont become a gangster. i have to hide myself in my room and cry because of them. why am i the one who have to do all these? arent this the job of the parents? nah, i`m the parent. as for myself, if you can see, my results aint good. all my subjects are on the failing range. maybe except for chinese and perhaps maths. i already need a lot of help for all these subjects. some of my friends still hadda find me more things to do. creating all those trouble for me. oh thanks man. i have to entertain my family for those problems. i have to entertain my friends for all those `FUN` they get out of doing those to me. i have to entertain myself for not having the energy to work hard. do i really have the tyme for all these? can you understand the stress and all that i have to go thru? i dont lyke to think so much. i dont lyke to bother myself w all these problems. how i wish i could wash my hands off all these. how i wish i can get rid of this mood swing. how i wish. promos is starting at 8am tmr. can i not take it? owells, i have to stop dreaming. back to reality, esther. yes, back to this life of mine. i`m sad. people can make it. can i? i cant. sorry i`m lyke so dead. yahhs i`m having mood swing. i cant stop it. i dont have the ability. i`m not looking down on myself. i`m not being negative here. i`m not trying to ask you to pity me or whatever. but well, this is what i`m currently feeling. forget it. i`m just having another swing. /jay`s tui hou PROMOS IS JUST IN ANOTHER 3 DAYS! ): i just dread that ): these few days had been feeling a lil good though not everything went my way. ytd night had a disgusting experience. you made me teared, YOU BLOODY STALKER! felt better after msging jmin and chatting w qx. just nw went for consultations. for a moment, i suddenly have a force that pushes me ahead to study and work hard for history. BUT owells, it`s too late for me to study finish. but that moment had disappeared. thanks to all for your constant encouragements. i really appreciate that. you all never gave up on me even when i gave up on myself. thanks! (: i`ll try not to give up and pull myself thru. will i pull thru? PICTURES FANTASY (:  <33 it`s her bday today! HAPPY BDAE missyGELA! [:  <33 my beloved 4cians  <33 me and prof bryan during sports day (:  <33 phebe and me before bedtyme during slc (:  <33 ndc committee (:  <33 me haz nic and hongyi (:  <33 ndc CHARLIE (:  <33 the 11 of us (:  <33 my present frm my dearest jmin :D  yay! i won ahsoon! he`s so slow ;x  my pw grp eating humchimpang (: `wheres sharon? *searching*  <33 me and minyen :D `taken last yr =X *hinting you*  <33 jmin and me :D  <33 me and SHARONdarl* :D  <33 MEMEME (: the weekends are finally here. adding to that, due to the fact that promos are starting on the coming thur, i`ve got study breaks frm monday to wednesday and that would mean that my `holidays` are starting today! but oh well, i must start studying le. i dont wanna fail and get retained. THUR 21o9o6 schooling. nearly fell aslp during some lessons. =X must thank that person who cheated me last night. initially said that we chat for half an hr only and ended up we chatted for near to 2hrs? slept at around 3am. *faints* went to woodlands to meet up w denise, qx and jason for dinner. i was the earliest (: ate at pizza hut and crapped a while. jason`s stupid joke made us laugh lyke siao. lol his joke is super funny. hahhs. went to walk ard and bought powerpuff and winnie the pooh stickers! that`s lyke a bit kiddish of me? =X but i really lyke the stickers! (: chiong off back to jjc to find my dearest jmin. poor her brokedown again. when she brokedown, i felt so helpless. i feel as though i`m the one who is breaking down too. min, you shouldnt let all these stuff affect you nw. why let it bother you and affect your mood? if those people wanna be lyke this, then so be it. we will get on w our lovely lives w/o them stepping in. but whatever it is, you knw that i`m always here. i dont mind rushing down just to hear you pouring your woes out despite what tyme it is. aha and just in case next tyme you feel sad and you cant see me immediately, it`s just a few clicks and you can see me in ur hp ;D heh. that`s the adorable and not stupid me alrights? ;x FRI 22o9o6 mschan never come sch so we have a lot of free periods. oh yah found out something that nic did for me -.- judging by the previous expression, yea it`s something that nic made and well, i`m speechless. dont know what more to say. but it`s always all thanks to somebody that a lot of ppl knw about it. i really dont lyke it when he has got to spread all these and let the whole world knws about it. chatted w ash today. knw her a lil more. yay! it`s back to our 4cians tyme! well ash, life has got to go on in jj despite all these. we will have to fight thru it w power. let`s go ashley! (: SAT 23o9o6 not gng for study grps w hui`s and sharondarl`s. why? cos i`m SICK AGAIN. running a fever nw. ): bless me pls. i dont wanna fall sick esp during the promos period. :/ pw written report is finally handed in. SOON to be, pw will be over and done w. only left w OP that`s in nov. shall update everything for the past wk in brief. 11o9o6 i have always loved 11st. thanks gor! (: 12o9o6 HAPPY BDAE lili! (: 13o9o6 schooling lyke any other days. 14o9o6 HAPPY BDAE LIXUAN! (: went to chinasquare for pw research but well my mum says we looked lyke we went for a food hunt more than gng there to do pw. shall upload the pix of us eating soon. went to hq to slack quite a while. chatted w them and stupid nic lied to me that he was leaving for japan that very night. ahhh! >.< but anyway, i`ve joined the PINGPONGPIANG family as stuping. yay! (: sorry lixuan, cant join you all for ur celebration. 15o9o6 there was blackout in JJ again! it was darkness everywhere. chiong down to fuhua for ftdrill accred. most of them did quite well for both bronze and silver. hope that the 2 who failed bronze will jiayou and pass the next tyme round. went for dinner w qx denise hongyi and keane at jec. 16o9o6 went jogging w aunt siewgeok. had dinner at katong. the nasilemak is really super tasty. go have a try there but one suggestion that i can give is that pls go at ard 6pm (opens at 530pm) cos after 630, the queue will be super damn long. more than 30plus ppl queueing up. aha went imm after that. 17o9o6 went nat lib to do pw but ended up doing at jer`s hse. everytyme our pw meetup sure got something that will crop up de. last sunday (11o9o6) we were firstly supposed to do pw report at taman jurong mac and the laptop`s batt died on us. ended up doing at ahsoon`s hse. this tyme round, there is batt in the laptop but our latest edited pw written report is in the email and nat lib dont have wireless connection. so ended up, we went jer`s hse to complete it. had lunch at bukitmerah food centre and went back to jer`s hse to do. 18o9o6 & 19o9o6 purely chionging pw. well thanks angela, denise and lixuan for ur great help! (: 20o9o6 today was in com lab for 4hrs and then on to 1h30min of maths. all lessons before maths were being postponed to tmr. cos we needa tidy up our pw report. it`s finally handed in. a heavy load off my shoulder. tmr gonna be hectic. anyway, today`s a special day. HAPPY BDAE! -i wanna see your smile this entry is specially dedicated to my sweet dearie denise . OMG! i got a shock when i saw this. still thought it was somebody else's blog. hahhs THANKS DEARIE! that was really SWEET and NICE of you and i LOVE this PURPLY blogskin! xD well promos are coming up. yea hopefully i`ll be in j2 next yr. well you too will be in j2 w me rights? i know you will. study hard for promos and you knw you can do it. (: anyway, you knw you have me to confide in yea? dont suppress everything up within you. life is a mixture of sunshine + rain, laughter + pleasure, teardrop + pain. So when the clouds hide the sun and your skies turn grey, remember i`ll always be here for you. [: LOVEya denise! =D alrights though i really wish i could blog nw in my lovely purply blogskin, i hadda chiong pw nw. shall blog after handing in the written report on wednesday okkay? give me the strength to fight on. let`s JIAYOU for pw! (:
HEY DEARIE!i changed ur blogskin just in case you were wondering who it was. heh heh. i like this purple tone. anyway i hope you like it. mug hard for your promotional exams alright? i'll definitely see you in JC2 next year. all the best! ^^ with TONNES OF LURRRVE, denise. <33 it had been quite a few days since i last blogged and well, i made a bet that i must die die update by tonight. boo shouldnt have made that bet to fred. aha. shall update to ndc first kkays? i wanna watch vcds lars. haha jmin gonna scream at me if she sees this =X but anyway i LOVE HYUN BIN. see that sheron? dun snatch him frm me canns? o6o9o6 alrights. went to fuhua for redcross trng w qx and denise. chiong back to sch for pw and back to fuhua again. went to alice`s hse to deliver her jiayou card and chocolates. she`s touched and i`m HAPPY! (: went to meet qx and denise back at je for pool. woohoo! long tyme ever since i last played pool le. and this explains why i`m not so good at it yea? haha guess i shld go for secret training. maybe engaging jer or hweeying to be my personal coach so that stupid qx wont laugh at me again. hahaa. went down to bedok. saw the rugby guys on the way there. it was fun msging mr banana lars. hahhs we taking same train only 1cabin apart. crapped w qx a lot and the songs in his mp3 is so nice cans? must get him to send to me liaos. *itching for that song* upon reaching bedok, realised that qx's ezlink card is not redeemed back at kpool. ohdear. had quite a long and hard tyme calling ppl to find it lars. but thank god it was at kpool so we proceeded on to ecp for project ncos bbq gathering. we walked a SUPER LONG WAY there lars. SUPERLY LONG. it's definitely AROUND 2.4km. we walked frm the bus stop then across the higway and frm pit49 all the way to pit5. OMG. i nearly died out of walking lars. was dragging qx and denise all the way. hahaa. ate quite some food and took some pix. well, geraldine is so pro at strangling chicken wings lars. LOL she taught me this de hors. actually i`m not violent at all =X not a lot of ppl went but it was fun anyway. seeing them makes me think of the fun tymes we went thru during west camp. a nice camp definitely! took cab back to je w qx, hongyi and keane. had some dessert there before leaving for home. o7o9o6 was supposed to go for pre camp de. well something big happened at home today. all thanks to my brother for giving me such a headache. sometymes i wonder why am i the one being burdened w all these problems and not my parents. forget it, i wont get an answer. o8o9o6 and o9o9o6 left home early in the morning for campsite. gng ndc today! took train w qx and i nearly puked lars. cant really stand long train rides in the morning. making me sick. so well, as qx was lazy, we took a cab frm kembangan to campsite. it was pretty dumb but we are lazy lars. dun wanna climb up the hill. ahah. helped out w the registration w denise. went to rah rah the cadets w lixuan w the `we feel good` cheer. but i think i looked really lyke an idiot ba. think i`m the only one feeling good there. lol. went on to individual group bonding sessions and phase A games. was in charlie w nick. joan ma`am has got attachment so she didnt join us during the day. well for the whole morning and early afternoon, i never felt so demoralised by what the 2cadets had said. there seemed to be some communication probs w charlie? but well, it doesnt matter cos after the talks w them, they became the BEST GROUP ever! they led their grp w cheers enthusiastically. they joined in lyke they never done before compared to in the morning. there is a 360degrees change in them and their attitude. me and nick were really HAPPY to see that change! well nobody can understand the excitement felt in us at that point of tyme. suddenly the charlie that was really dead and not enthu in the morning and afternn emerged out to be the most HIGH group! and we became united. we really did! waimin ma`am was even coming into our classrm and telling us that we are rocking the campsite upside down! WOOHOO! god wasnt on our side. it rained heavily half an hr before campfire started. we hurriedly chionged down to set up the bbq pits once the rain stopped a while later. thanks to those cadets who were so sweet to bbq my marshmallows for me. heh thanks to my charlie jinghan and yongxuan esp. haha. it drizzled a while later and we all gotta move into the canteen. boohoo. the weather is just changing so fast that we didnt expect lars. a while later it stopped drizzling and here comes our highlight of the camp. the ndc campfire! YAY! i was SUPER HIGH during campfire lars. or maybe i shld say i was all along SUPER HIGH in the camp. haha. loved one of the new campfire songs `linger`. did the friendship dance and i realised a lot of ppl wanna dance w me norhs. one gd example is yongxuan. LOL. anyway charlie did a great campfire performance. YAY! let`s go charlie let`s go! the KOPI bing consisting of qx, hongyi and umbrose performed kiss gdbye. kenny is in ns while jason is doing something `impt`. haha their performance is super funny lars. shall post the youtube in my blog. haha had debrief w charlie. i nearly teared when nick mentioned to them that i gonna leave tmr morning and they wanna perform a last tyme for me! YAY! we really rocked the whole campsite down though it`s 1130pm already. i`m really touched lars. oh when alpha! oh when alpha! oh when alpha goes down the drain. oh dear bye bye alpha~ oh when alpha goes down the drain. oh when bravo! oh when bravo! oh when bravo goes down the drain. oh dear bye bye bravo~ oh when bravo goes down the drain. oh when charlie! oh when charlie! oh when charlie flies up the sky. oh yay we`re the champion~ oh when charlie flies up the sky. CHARLIE! (: went to chat ard w the cadets. duo ni bing frm woodgrove sec is super cute lars. ;p must go down w joan ma`am to her unit to visit dou ni bing liaos. lol. was chatting w umbrose and qx in the canteen cos we were all hungry and we are the only ones not aslp yet at 2am 3am plus. haha we are owls (: thanks umbrose for the instant noodles and also the watermelon! haha went to sleep in west room cos there wasnt space ops rm. super cold lars all thanks to that stupid guy who adjusted the temp. 18degrees for such a big rm w not many ppl -.- it was FREEZING COLD lars. went for pt led by the two ns men, max sir and joshua sir. the two of them bullied me in the ops rm lars -.- boo hadda leave early so took a charlie pix before we left. took the committee pix too! i cant bear to leave them ): cabbed to hq for west district YOSS. had a meeting after that. followed by lunch at pastamania and then pool. i`m the ultimate loser. boo must really engage jer or hweeying to be my personal coach liaos. haha. HOME SWEET HOME after that. anyway, must thank the two woodgrove sec guys who kept volunteering to lead and taking initiative as well. thanks junhong and jinghan! they brought the spirit of charlie up! and also, not forgetting the rest of the charlie members too. yay you all rawks! definitely not forgetting my partners mentors as well. thanks nick and joan ma`am! charlie spirit flies up HIGH! =D it`s w charlie that i`m so disappointed in the morning, it`s w charlie that i met some problematic ppl. it`s w charlie that those ppl made a 360degrees change in attitude that shocked and touched us. it`s w charlie that dont make me feel lyke leaving the camp earlier. it`s w charlie that make me feel bonded to them even though we only shared a day together. it`s w charlie that had specially performed for me the night before i l left. it's w charlie that made me feel that i had enjoyed myself a lot in the camp. it's w charlie that had left me w nice memories of ndc. and it`s w charlie. [: i`m burdened w problems. when one is solved, the next one is coming right behind. it`s just lyke a relay match. 10000000000problems x 10000000000days relay. this relay is tiring. when is this race ending? i lost my state of mind. i nearly lost myself. it nearly ended oh yea it really did. ytd was fun. fsrcy. pool. ecp. will blog about it more when i come back frm ndc and when i have the mood to do so ba. leaving for ndc in another few hours. i still have tons of things left undone. oh how great... -i need to breathe. i need something to make me smile. this morning went sch for geog and hist consultations w sheron. ohyea must really thank msmandy and mrhendri. ESP MRHENDRI. he specially came back sch just to give us 2hrs plus of consultation. ohmy! i really appreciate that and i must really try my best to understand this arab-israeli conflict! +ve +ve sometymes i really do wonder. why must they have conflicts in the first place? if there arent conflicts, we wouldnt have to do history yea? aha. i`m thinking too much. well things may not settle peacefully and people dont always compromise and give in to one another and so, conflicts happen. chiong to hq for ndc meeting. fallen aslp in the train and nearly exceeded the stop i wanna get down at. ;x ndc meeting was long. initially had already planned not to go for ndc le cos promos is coming. but seems lyke pigg mentor is really short of manpower. how can his mentee not help rights? besides partner UMbrose will also need help in games so agreed to go in the end. this means that another day down. yea wkends will also be down too cos of redcross events. saturday have west district youth officers sharing session and syf gathering. there`s the redcross international bazaar at the thai embassy on sunday. so 3days down. there`s pw consultation in sch, redcross trng in fuhua and also bbq cum west camp gathering at ecp. my holidays are so PACKED. i NEED YOUR TYME!  lixuan is just being innovative or maybe i should say LAZY to have thought of this. LOL i`m back from a long tiring day. before i forget, HAPPY 17th BDAE ARTHUR! ytd night chatted w my dearest buddy jm until 1am plus then started preparing redcross uniform and accessories. this morning was late upon reaching cck to meet qx, hongyi and lixuan. :x chiong cab there and crapped along the journey. it was super funny lars. hms qx is joining the ___ tmr. aha better dun say more or he gonna kill me. heard that jason might be joining too. hahah. lixuan, get ready the money to buy me icecream yea? (; was being told by stephen sir that i`m being appointed the duty trainer (DT) [OMG! ]for bronze accred assisting qihui ma`am while reinaldo is the DT for silver accred assisting qijun sir. when qx and lixuan told me in the morning, i still dun believe them lars. unbelievable man~ but seriously speaking, some of you shld knw how i feel if you know me well. confidence is one thing. yea but nevertheless, i took up the post and started my duty (: uniform inspections, theory accred and practical accred was all fun lars. fuhua cadets did me proud! for bronze lars i never go ask about silver but think they can make it de lars. all of them from bronze passed and shiyuan got either one of the highest or the highest among all. 98/100 yay! accred ended early and everything was done by 330. 2hrs earlier than the expected tyme. didnt go for dinner w them cos i am really too TIRED. really too tired man. me and lixuan were nice to accompany gela to take the red line though it will take me 90min to reach jurong instead of the green line which only takes 45min. haha chatted a lot w them. was funny lars. me doing yoga in train to entertain them. lol lixuan was super innovative to have thought of hanging our narang barang on the mrt handle. actually she was just being LAZY lars :P yea was telling lixuan about who we respected most in redcross. yea (: HOME SWEET HOME [: i feel so happy. REALLY HAPPY today and maybe now. i haven talked to my dearest buddy for ages and it feels great to chat w him. felt emo when i chatted w him. told him about some happenings in my life nowadays and i feel so much better after i finally said it out. (:  my PURPLY IDOL w me again ;D  my PURPLY IDOL w me ;D  me w the big big mic  what`s laogong pointing at? i dont care. :P  me and laogong! (:  meme! TADA~ i`m back w a good mood! (: YTD 31o8o6 went sch super early. i woke up at 610 kkays? wonder when is the last tyme i woke up so early for sch. hms hahaa. met up w huihui then chiong to sch. darryl went early cos me and hui were late :x heh. leaders went to do mass dance and some cheers to build up the atmosphere though the rain is getting heaiver. stayed in lt5 for a while before the rain is not so heavy and everyone proceeded to field for MASS YOGA! hahahh yoga in the rain and we set the guiness world record! all the poses were super funny and some were unglam lars. but who cares? i`m not on some candid camera or videos. AHAHA. did a few cheers and we were really SUPER HIGH. (x i just LOVE CHEERING lars. =D the flying fox came down twice. first w the sch flag and secondly w the `broke record` thingy. the banner that JJ won the people development`s award came down w 2person abseiling. the big banner that the councillors painted is really nice too! did a few cheers and the `throwing` of the yoga master in the air ended JJ`s celebration for J1s. the J2s proceeded to the hall for concert while we are dismissed. chiong back to sec sch w jmin and yanping. the rest of the jjcians went a lil later. i cant wait to see mr chia mah. guessed what? MR CHIA WORE PURPLE! *SCREAMS* he looked so CHARMING lars! *went JUMPING AROUND* i was really SUPER HIGH. xDD i LOVE MY PURPLY IDOL MR CHIA! ;D saw a lot of familiar faces. took pix w a lot of ppl in their cams. took pix w my PURPLY IDOL MR CHIA too! yay! 2SHOTS lehhs. dun be jealous kkays? i`m so HAPPY that i`m flying to heaven... went out w drey nuer and yanping laogong after that. hadda reject many ppl. sorry yea? went imm and took some super silly pictures. :x had lunch at my all tyme faves LJS. (: went walking ard and then to je lib. borrowed 2books. hoped that it turned out nice (: caught up a lot w drey and yanping. yay! TODAY 1o9o6 HAPPY TEACHERS DAY my beloved teachers esp my PURPLY IDOL MR CHIA! [: received a call frm qx and 10min after that, tada~ i`m out of hse. aha cos he last minute cant contact jason mah so i went w him to hongyi`s POP. the POP was nice of course. easy spotting hongyi cos he`s the tall one there. qx crapped a lot and lied to me many many tyme. boo -.- hongyi`s platoon commander is super yandao lars! AHHHHH!!~ oops a bit lost control ;x went to hongyi`s hse to slack a while before gng to lot1 to have dinner. had dinner at ajisen (: i love partying! =D though not many went, it was fun nevertheless! |