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just touched some real sensitive issues. i never run away from it. i faced it w courage though deep in me, i kept questioning myself: are you sure you wanna continue talking about it? there was silence. i always ended up crying. yepps that`s me. -the EMO me. ): 16 PF test
Get to know esther more?did this 16PF test which costs 45bucks. yepps it's really very true. wanna understand me more? read this! Ms Esther works comfortably with problems and situations that require thinking and reasoning at a practical level. She is also able, though, to handle some problems that involve the need to understand abstract concepts and relationships. However, she is generally most at ease when working through problems that relate to her experience and training. She does not show much similarity, however, to persons who prefer and enjoy the kind of activities that formal academic training offers. Perhaps, she may have interest in more practical educational situations. Ms Esther appears to be a person who is apt to be more intuitive than strictly rational in her approach to problems and situations. She is likely, at times, to focus more on the intangible feeling aspects of what she believes to be most important. Being open to rather sensitive perceptions about things, she may also find it somewhat difficult to easily set them aside. She seems to get overly concerned about possible negative outcomes or results. Her decisions are typically aimed at low risk and low gain type outcomes. Right now, Ms Esther seems to be experiencing more worry and tension than is usually normal. Perhaps this shows that she is having some trouble accomplishing what she expects of herself in her personal life and career. Nonetheless, Ms Esther may tend to feel she cant cope with some stressful situations when things appear to keep going wrong for her. When she feels this way she may react in ways that differ from persons who usually adapt to or manage these situations more easily. Also, when she feels that she cant cope with things, she may tend to give up or to simply stay away from the situation or relationship. Ms Esther is prone to worry about things of importance to her, and sometimes feels less worthy and equal to others than she would like to be. As a result, she may not accept herself enough to be fully herself with others. Most of the time, Ms Esther tends to pay rather close attention to people around her. She seldom spends a lot of effort and time focusing on herself. She is a socially participative person for the most part. She usually feels best about what she does when she is being really helpful to others in some way. She seems to have concern for people who may need assistance and support from her. She likes to put forth a feeling of warmth when interacting with others. She is a good natured person and one who generally prefers participation in group activities. Ms Esther is generally quite at ease when approaching and talking with people in most social gatherings. Nevertheless, she appears to relate to most people with ease and comfort. Ms Esther usually strives to balance her desire to be somewhat dominant in relationships with a sensible display of humility and modesty when it is important to do so. Even so, Ms Esther appears to want to be cheerful and active in her dealings with most people. She also usually tries her best to be as lively as possible in most social situations. The words below descibes Ms Esther`s global factor pattern and primary factor profile. -EXTRAVERTED -HIGH ANXIETY -EMOTIONALLY CHANGEABLE -AFFILIATIVE -WARM, ATTENTIVE TO OTHERS -SOCIALLY BOLD oh man it is so SUPER TRUE lars. FAC today. in case you do not knw what it is, it`s first aid competition. fuhua lost. yea but no matter what, i think the girls did their best. lyke what i told them, by participating in the competition, it is an experience learnt. winning is just a reward. for west district, huayi came in first. followed by unity and regent. both qx`s schools. congrats qx! you must be really happy yea? =D RGS is the overall champs. congrats geraldine! (: anyway jason, pls dun be so disappointed okkays? SMILE mentor! [: well i`m back to my old blogskin again. the reason is really simple. cos i`m not able to find a nice blogskin and also there are problems w the temporary green blogskin. the entries frm the 6thaug to 25th aug werent able to be blogged out due to my really hectic schedule so in summary these are the things that happened. 6thaug: went to help out owens in painting. and also, thanks JMIN for the nice and sweet present. 7thaug: ahgong`s bdae! owens touchup on deco 8thaug: sl investiture. sports carnival. owens is the CHAMP for cheering and overall sports carnival. 9thuag: HAPPY 41st bdae SPORE! (: 10thaug: i forgot =/ 11staug: SLCfamily3lg09. it's 11st again! 12ndaug: SLCfamily3lg09 13rdaug: SLCfamily3lg09 here are some of our lg09 cheers. it`s super nice kkays? hah `we are LG 09, we are cute, handsome and pretty... if you dont believe we say, come and check it out today! 09!` ken taught us this cheer. the way he sings it makes me feel lyke laughing =X there`s another one which sounds like this. `Give me a L (L) GIve me a G (G) Give me a 0 (0) Give me a 9 (9) what is that ? OOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhh....... LG09 la lala la lalala LG09 la lala la we are the funkiest log we are the cutest log and we`re gonna log the world tonight here we go again!" *poses that cool look* both are edited from songs like YMCA and Kwando (X3) haha. slc had been really fun. w archery, golf, ballrm dancing, all the cheerings and definitely, the ROOFTOP CONCERT! YAY! =D went around lyke mad searching for my besties to thank them and give them hugs. cant seem to find hui darryl and han. but managed to find laogong yanping and my DEAREST JMIN! PROF bryan gave me a great big hug too! =D and also slc had been great cos lg09 raawks! not only the jj peeps but also the 3bukit view peeps namely ahboy haojie, eunice and rachelle (: tonight we remember the tymes we spent together the joy and the laughter that we share tonight we cherish the moments spent together because it`s the only tyme we have look at us and see our smiles this is where we all belong i remember the tymes we shared together until the last december tonight lg09 lala la lalala [: 15thaug: haiza`s bdae! 17thaug: conglin`s bdae! 18thaug: wunjien`s bdae! it`s showtyme recording at mediacorp. it was really fun cheering for our team. no matter whether we win or lose, what matters most is our positive attitudes. this applys to studies and work as well. aha yea han and gang really went crazy cheering. didnt stayed in sch to cheer and dance cos darryl wanna leave and me and huihui wanna buy him eggtarts. hah in replacement of the bdae cake. 19thaug: darryl`s bdae! redcross flag day collection. ushering duty. helped out at the redcross flag day collection point for west district at css w qx. caught up a lot w him. went back to jj for ushering duty for opening of pd block. -shagged- 21staug-23rdaug: boring sch life w a few gd things happening. 24thaug: hist SEA proj at sharon`s hse. declaration of 25th anniversary dinner well, the sch officially made this announcement that jj will be having a 25th anniversary dinner cum j2s prom night on the 29thdec. my class seemed to be really enthusiastic about it so of course hadda be sporting. mschan decided to spon us since everyone in the class is gng. initially it was 45bucks/tix so we only hadda pay 35bucks. but here comes the top 2 things that i hadda do frm today onwards. save more MONEY to buy myself a dress or whatever it is, shoes, accessories and blahhs for the dinner. secondly, i must shed at least 5kg or i`m sure i wont be turning up. aha it gonna be tough man. me eileen and jer went darl`s hse to chiong our hist SEA proj. i stayed until quite late and had dinner at her hse too. dinner was great! (: 25thaug: conflict. sl meeting. fsrcy. dinner. what really pissed me off is that i just said `can you pls dont do` and somebody said `esther can you pls shut up and fu*ck off!` WHAT THE HELL? i haven even finish my sentence and i am NOT either party of the conflict. what really pissed me off even more is that i was being hurled w vulgarities when it wasnt my fault. enough w the unhappy things. went for sl meeting w darryl hui and han. ohh we got things to do on the mass yoga on thur. having rehearsals on monday and wednesday. got my badge and teeshirt. jmin helped me take my cert while i chiong off to fuhua. thanks! people asked me why sch ended at 530 and yet i still make it a point to chiong down to fuhua for redcross trng. my ans is really simple. cos fsrcy is my passion and they keep me gng. gave the sec3s a dressing down. please dont let me down. took bus w denise to woodlands. transisland buses really make me feel lyke puking. fallen aslp in the bus. really too shagged. thanks denise for the card! (: went causeway to meet up w jason and wilson. qx went his ahma`s hse so didnt come along for dinner. reached home at 11. -shagged- temporarily using this blogskin. sharon gonna be screaming when she sees this. aha still on the search =/ look nic. i`m still online nw yea? i'm NOT a pigg kkays? (x dun have the energy to blog. goodnights! i`m just disappointed w all the results that i got. my motivation is gone. it has all disappeared once again when these kinda results came back. first it was chi paper 2. then it was hist CW. followed by maths and then geog. whats up next? my smile is gone. -/flooding myself w tears sorry guys didnt join you all for class outing. paternal grandpa got into hospital cos of some bladder probs again. doctor says he is alright for nw. well have to wait for the medical report to be out before we will knw whether he is really alright or not. he will be, i`m sure. shall blog about everything in the next few days when i got the mood. I LOVE JMIN! =D i let mr hendri down. had 6whole hours of consultation w him on thur and ytd i still cant make it. i`m SORRY! i only know how to do the religious fundamentalism essay out of the 4essays which means for 75/100 marks of the papers i DUNNO how to do. before the exam when i was trying my best to understand the turning and not turning point thingy i cried. when jack told me not to be stressed i cried for the second tyme. when hoehan gave me a pat on the shoulder asking me to forget about the paper 1 and jiayou for paper 2 i cried out once again. during the paper i also feeling emotionally unstable. i feel that yesterday was emotionally unstable day for me ba. you may laugh all you want but i dont care. i dont think it`s wrong to show my feelings in this way. at least it will make me feel better. thanks for your joke about me trying to cheat w all the papers on my lap 3minutes before the exams. hah that was a nice one. rushed off straight after the papers. i cant even stand a minute longer in the classrm. hate myself! daddy drove me to fuhua. it was 6pm already but still wanna go down. fuhua redcross unit really made me felt better. lyke i always had mentioned, whenever in redcross training, no matter how sad i feel, during that training i will feel much better. that has always been the case. their drills will still have to make some improvements and they will be better. a lot of instructors frm other ugs also went down for the ndp rehearsal namely polly jinming and blahhs. after training had a mini celebration for denise. happy belated bdae my girl! hope you lyke that. went to meet up w minyen at macs. the one near her house. yea my bestie. chatted w her a lot and she cheated me to walk a distance of 4-5busstops. went home frm there w my other bestie jmin. caught up a lot w her and well things really do change. people change too. you knw what i mean. received a call frm qx. was already feeling terrible. after the phone call felt even terrible. i`m being replaced in the nat camp and i cant go nat camp, not even for 2days. guess they have got better choices ba. they can stay thruout the 4days so of course it will be a better choice. well i cant say that i`m not disappointed and affected by it can i? even if i really do say that, it must have been a lie. when i first received this email on 15thmay, i was so damn happy, so really excited into gng the camp. but why has that jj student leaders camp clashed w it? i brought this upon myself and have got nothing to blame too. qx, happy working w your new partner and i felt happy for you too. these people made my day a much better one ytd. namely jmin sharon han and prof. JMIN: thanks PARTNER! we may stumble and fall but we gonna go thru this together. LOVE ya min! SHARON: dun be upset over ur new eye candy kkays? aha you will also get to go out w him de. LOVE ya darl! han: thanks for motivating me ytd. nw i see the other side of you and i`m glad that i have a classmate lyke you! prof: all your philosopies makes a lot of sense and thanks for making me so happy. even if it`s a day lyke this only, i`m already contented (: http://www.mediabum.com/html/Did-This-Pastor-Just-Say-That-.html here`s a webbie that prof gave me. it has got funny videos inside. watch it when you are down and it gonna cheer you up a lil. by the way happy belated bdae to daddy, uncle and denise whose bdaes fall on the 3rdaug. -/i`m just not cut out for ANYTHING. I FEEL TERRIBLE denise sent me this song just nw. thanks! For You I Will (confidence) by teddy geiger Wandering the streets in a world underneath it all Nothing seems to be Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have Like you and the way that you're Twisting your hair 'round your finger Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you What I feel about you Chorus Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have Cannonball into the water I'm gonna muster up every ounce of confidence I have For you I will, for you I will Forgive me if I stutter From all of the clutter in my head Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes Like a waterbed Do I seem familiar I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times No more camouflage I want to be exposed and not be afraid to fall Chorus 2 Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have Cannonball into the water I'm gonna muster up every ounce of confidence I have For you I will, for you I will You always want what you can't have But I've got to try I'll muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will, for you I will If I could the lights in the mall and create a mood, I would Shout out your name so it echoes in every room, I would That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do To get through to you, yeah Chorus 2 -if i`m not a good listener try talking to the mirror someone out there will here you (make sense? dunno but that`s what nic said) i flunked my geog. never do the 25marks phy geog essay at all. well it was so damn chim and i studied on the wrg sections for phy geog? never complete 31marks for geog paper out of the 98marks. i`m sure to fail geog de. unless my human geog section can give me full marks. well that`s obviously IMPOSSIBLE. i died in maths, econs and geog. whats next? history? yea i think so too ): YESTERDAY 1stAUGUST my dear jiamin`s bdae! gave her a surprise. went her hse at 1155pm to give her a cake the moment it striked 12am. hope she lykes it! (: /esther died another tyme Dun worry too much. Just do your best. I am sure you can do well and will do well. Jiayou! i still didnt do well in my paper despite mrchia`s encouragement. hate myself! i disappointed mrchia. disappointed myself ): -there goes my maths |