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think it is time fer a reflection again.maaybe he is realli rite.nort alL my thingx shld appear on this blog.it is like making it known to the world abt wads happening in my liife.i am realli sorrie abt it.haix.cried last nite after having a talk wib u.i am sorrie tt i made u seemed to ppl like u are playing the role of a bad guy.i am realli sorrie.listened to guang liang de tong hua fer the whole of last nite.kept crying.thought abt a lot of thingx that had been happening ard mI.to alL who i had offended or made u angri or hurtx or irritated,i am sorrie.pls forgive mI.and also,feeL free to tag on my tagboard & sae out ur commentx when u think tt i shld nort blog it here or i had said sth wrg or i shld reflect on myself.thanx.
neberr blog fer quite a few daex lex.realli no time & also,com is down.thanx uncle fer helping mI wib mY com aniwae.hmx.let mI see where shld i start ba.maaybe thur?hmx.hadda lessonx as per normaL lorx.toopid mr ng announced the new moniter & monitress.hmx.yankiat is the new 4C moniter while emily is the newly appointed monitress.congratx.den hanging & taqiah were both promoted to mentorx.zzz.worse stilL,there are another two assistant monitor & monitress.diaox.one class need sooo many fer wat?toopid mr ng.yazid is the assistant monitor while esther is the assistant monitress.zzz.who is esther btw?oopx.a bit crazy nw arx.paiseh.hahx.aniwae,there is rC sec1 orientation.dunno wad to sae abt the whole event arx?toopid mr teo.sooo late den gib us the list den nw onli left wib 12ppl he happie le larx?ask him go die larx.shit norhx.damn angri wib him nw.haiyah.angri also no use liaox.wads done cannot be undone.hmx.the organising committee was nort united & organised at alL? if it is like tt time the promotion dae,den think this orientation wilL be a much more successfuL one.aniwae,jux hope tt sec3s wilL perform better in future cos the future of rC lies in their hands.sec3s mux jiayou worx.dismissed the sec1s first cos there is realli a need to talk to the sec2s & 3s.some of them kept gibing us this attitude de lehx.took us fer granted.when they happie or when there are games,they come.when there they are nort happie or when there is ftdrilL,they dun come.wad do they treat us fer?we are nort a welfare cca whereby u jux pay the funds & gib us this kind of attitude lorx.if they want to continue gibing us this kind of attitude,jolly welL get out of rC!scolded them untiL tears flowed down again.haix.my tear duct is damn active lorx.at first stilL thought tt i wilL be strong enuff so as nort to cry out in front of them but welL,i cant do it in the end.useless mI.told them to reflect on themselves.haix.sorrie to alL.i as a senior also neberr teach properly.sorrie if i had been gibing that kind of attitude.i wilL reflect on myself dex.hmx.dun wanna tok sooo much to spoiL my mood.lucky gt a bunch of faithfuL cadets who neberr faiL to attend our trainings & respect rC or i cant imagine wad rC wilL be like without them.a big thankew.changed my mood 360degreex after tt.toopid gurrlx & cadets ready fer water bomb?hahx.toopid minyen kept forcing mI to hold tt balloon de.wanna make it burst.she v.bad lorx.=P went to take pix again wib gurrlx.sooo drenched.after takign pix,they began bursting alL the balloonx.toopid them larx.made mI scream untiL like siaox like tt.after tt they alL made mI go to a corner.stilL thought they wanna gang rape mI sia.l0lx.passed mI the prezzie.poOh & a necklace.poOh is sooo cute & the necklace is sooo super chio.stAr shaped pendant.sooo happie.thanx alL my deArs & gurrlx.love u alL sooo much.too bad dC didnt come down join us in the fun.hugged alL of them.made them wet.wahahahax~ aniwae,wanna go back home lex.saw mr chia & said gdbye.he shaked my hands & wished mI happie bdae despite him carrying sooo many thingx.l0lx.weEeEeEsS~ think xiaomin mux be jealous ba?l0lx.heex.mr chia is sooo nice,shuai,... oopx.am i going crazy again?hahx.went bubble tea shop wib gurrlx & went home after tt.chatted wib jm on the fone untiL 12midnite plus lorx.hahx.msg kept coming in after tt.thanx alL. todae is mY bdae!my sweet sixteen~hahx.went to imm wib cousin in the morning cos he wanna buy mp3.hahx.forgot to mention tt i gort an ipod shuffLe.yeas~ went to wait fer ks gOr at 11.45am.waited fer 35min & guessed where was he?he was at home slping when i called him seh.arghx.stood mI up on this very dae.utterly disappointed.walked to jE ljs meet qiuyu & minyen.hadda lunch dere.saw yankai de sis & shujia & co.at first wanna head towards plaza singapure de but cos somebody gort knocked down by the mrt at buona vista,the mrt heading towards plaza could nort get going.in the end,we hadda a change of plan.went to orchard to meet sher.on our way dere,crapped a while,listened to some sad songs frm minyen de hp & nearly cried.l0lx.met a pervertic cum crazy guy in the mrt?mI & minyen gort shocked tio sia.qiuyu act brave lorx.hahx.went meet sher den we slacked & walked to far east.took cardprintx again.yeas~ walked walked again den saw victor dere.hmx.went to causeway point after tt.on the way dere in the mrt,toopid minyen made mI super paiseh lorx.cos we sat down mah den i sat cross-legged.minyen suddenly told mI out of the blue tt i wilL zao geng.den i hurriedly put down my legx & bang.cos it was such a fast reaction,my sandaLx hit the bottom of the metaL sheet thingy.the bang was sooo loud lorx.god.super malu.l0lx.alL retarded gurrlx fault larx.hahx.aniwae,toopid retarded gurrl gort shocked tio by mI.hmx.actually is nort my fault de but she kept claiming is my fault.alL rite,it goes like this.she & sher went in the shop & i didnt went it.i stood ouside at the window & jux knocked onto the window & she jumped.l0lx.totally gort shocked tio.den after tt she super funnie lorx.kept gibing mI tt look.she took revenge on mI & tortured mI & my shoulders sixteen timex.sher at least better lorx.neberr hit sooo hard.hahx.went home after tt.needa go makan at souP restaurant wib family.had a nice dae afteralL.enjoyed myself ba.aniwae,todae is also zhanhui & yvonne de bdae.happie bdae~ all the best to both of u & stay happie alwaex! =D thanx to the following fer ur wishes & prezziex: laogong yAnping, qiuyu, deniise, toopid retArded gurrL minyEn, xianggong peiShii,wufEng gOr,koksEng gOr,grand nuer shEr, cOnniie deAr, auDrey nuer,lydiA nuer, iVy nuer, jessiCa mei, yixuAn deAr, love rivaL[l0lx]xiaOmin, deviL jiAweii, jiinmiNg, ashLey & eugEne, nanny adeLine, kelLy deAr, luiS, kAngweii, congshEng, jUnjiE, zhaNhui, aLan, cOnglin, mr chiA, mr lOh, classmatex & rC peePx. happie bdae to mI~ maay alL mY dreeamx come true. =D Though these few daex had been quite bz, stilL mangaed to squeeze out some time on reflection. ytd heard the latest news.feeling kinda confused ba.maybe onli a teeny wenny bit sad nia.hahx.think tt is the bdae prezzie tt he wanna gib mI?if it is,I rather I nort wan it.hahx.but since everything is predestined,wad fer change fate?hahx. I think it is time fer a new mI. I had straightened out mY thinking that he is nort the guy fer mI & I should let go of this love.hmx. *phew a load is finally off mY mind.kinda relaxed?maybe jm is rite.single rawkx.dn needa worri abt this and that.gort alL the freedom in the world to love anybody.there wilL nort be any constraints or boundaries whereby ur partners set fer u.welL if u had found ur partner,cherish ur other half but if u have nort,why bother to find? Fate wilL bring u together wib ur other half so wad fer go against heavens wilL? Hahx.also dunno wad I am crapping. ever since after our breakup,I had been yearning very much fer a patch.as the dayx passed by,my feelingx fer u seemed to get stronger & stronger untiL it gort out of controL.i couldnt help thinking abt u alL dae long.i couldnt stop myself frm loving u despite u loving other people.i cried dayx & nights fer u but u didnt gib it a damn.i told myself to move on & nt hold on to the past but I just cant do it.the reason is becos I love u.but todae,I finally realised one thing.after 400daex of waiting,I found out that it wasnt worth it.u no longer deserve my love.u toyed wib my feelingx & had left a deep scar in my heart.u kept disappointing mI time after time & I think that is enough.u are nort the right guy fer mI & u had neber been.my feelingx fer u had faded away & thanx time fer healing my heart.i no longer love u & that is the end of our story. Ytd went sch at ard 7.55am.lucky reached sch early or else cant get to see the grad ventures lex.hahx.passed to gOrgOr his comix bks plus extra one bk.cos he gt bk5, 6 & 8 mah den dun have 7 so bought fer him bk 7 lorx.hmx.think I saw ernest tt batch de venturex also huh?l0lx.went canteen wait fer minyen.saw jb they alL dere.avoided eye contact.sianx.slacked ard wib minyen.after tt went outside to get some food & tt retarded gurll went to have a haircut again.l0lx.she alwaex have haircut de lorx.sooo often lehx.hahx.went back sch den jb they alL left lex.sianx.the npcc having training again.bo bian mah.who ask them is goh this year.a few of them seniors very sucky lorx e.g. jy. Nahx.hate these kind of bastar*s.better dun come & offend mI.or I slap u.hmx.dunno wads the matter wib mI.suddenly sooo pissed off when typing my entry nw.maybe cos of wad happened jux nw ba.welL,back to ytd,met up wib audrey nuer & laogong.went jP makan at ljs again.lalalax~ it is the 11st time this month lex.mI pro horx?went to laze ard den went playgrd tt area.after tt,audrey nuer & laogong went home.sorri lehx audrey.mux have made u feeL bored.realli sorrie ya?after tt mI & minyen walked home lorx.halfway thru,we stopped by huayisec tt pavillion & chatted & crapped.hahx.we tok sooo much lorx.talkative arx retarded gurll? L0lx.she accompanied mI walk back home sia.alL the way to mY lift lehx.l0lx.feeL a bit scared.hmx.is she a stalker?l0lx. hahx.lalalax~ think she gotta scold mI if she sees this.thanx aniwae.hahx.went home den laze ard.this morning woke up super earli lorx cos needa msg jm.he leaving fer indonesia todae.bon voyage worx.take carex when u are over dere.jux nw gurrlx called mI.actually having a headache de but the news tt she broke out to mI suddenly made mI sooo perked up sia.haix.maybe it is a gd thing fer him ba.congratx to both him & rachaeL.i dun feeL sooo sad le lorx.izzit becos I am used to alL this sadness lex? Hahx.mI also dun feeL sooo much fer him lex maybe.no wonder I neber even cry out lorx.called jJ cos I jux wanna find out hu tt gurll is although I alreadi gt a storng feeling tt it is her.hahx.i am right sehh.my sixth sense sooo accurate sia.aniwae,sorri tt I sorta forced u to sae out.knw tt u are in a difficult position but can u dun hang up the calL on mI?it is realli rude.feeling sooo sarkY nw. Fer the past few daex had been quite busy ba.tue went sch fer rC training & hsk.after tt went jP makan at ljs.wed gt class.after tt went jP makan at ljs again.saw ben,jw & jm.diaox.at first found a seat liaox den saw them den siam.hahx.went to shop wib my after tt.todae gt promotion parade cum activitiex. Reached sch at ard 7.30plus.crapped wib mr govin cos wanna get his permission to get the rC rm keyx mah.he damn funnie sia.crapped wib mI lorx.sae scared I steaL the tables, chairs, door, fan & other first aid stuff in rC rm.l0lx.hahx.seC2s & 3s hadda some training before the promotion parade.saw him and jj in the canteen.totally sianx diaox.dunno why larx.dun feeL like seeing him.the sight of him makes mI very pekchek sia.some cadets came late.gave them a gd dressing down sia.sadx.mI sooo damn fierce lorx.oopx.suan lex.tt is the serious mI during rC training wad.hmx.hope tt alL the cadets can understand.if they cant den sorrie abt it.promotion parade is finally here.though some of the ranks & badges were nort here yet,we continued wib the parade.our pC shouted very loudly this time worx.hahx.yixuan was our squad commander.peishi was the squad commander fer the seC2 squad.jasmine was the emcee & yongseng was the one helping out wib the badges & ranks.saw tt bit*h dere.god.realli spoilt all our mood sia.sighx.hmx.the whole of the seC3s & 4s squad kept laughing away de lorx.hahx.realli very funnie lehx.pC also laughed lorx.hahx.overalL everybody gt promoted ba except fer those slackers larx.hmx.congratx to alL.fer those who didnt get promoted,buck up.clapx to the parade committee [minyen, jasmine, peishi, yixuan & yongseng] though gort promoted,stilL a bit disappointed huh? Cos rank haben come yet.hmx.nvm ba.hope tt hQ wilL hurry gib us our staff sergeant rankx.after tt, proceeded to our water bomb game.this time round gort changes made worx.alL took out our shoex & mind u,the parade square is freaking hot lorx.mI dun use this kind of word de horx.but cos it is realli hot! L0lx.mI like siaox like tt.kept jumping up &down.hahx.programme i/c peishi quite creative sia.thought of a new game to play the water bomb game instead of the usuaL sianx one.after all those,stilL hadda finaL usuaL splashing sessions.sec3s & 4s splashed the sec2s & den vice versa.but seniors definitely more united den juniors larx.we stilL sang guang liang de tong hua before we let them splashed us lorx.hahx.after tt was refreshments.food quite nice larx.most of us were dried liaox.but nort nanny.muahahahasS~ asked everybody surround her before she runs away.sang her a bdae song & splashed four paiLs of water on her.omIgod.she sooo wet.lalalax.hahx.asked cadets clear up den followed bY debrief.this promotion exercise was quite welL done except fer a few smalL mistakes in between.organising committee,welL done! *clapx next thur gotta be seC1 orientation.hope tt this time round,dere wont be any disappointmentx ba.went to jP wib laogong.saw tt guy again. These few daex when going home tt time, kept seeing tt guy dex.hmx.dunno whu he is larx but he a bit shuai?hahx.alrite.went to meet up wib uncle & cousinx they alL outside GV.saw wunjien on mY way dere.gOd.he more & more beng liaox.haix.hope tt he wilL come to his senses soon & quit gang.saw kangwei & co at GV tt side.crapped wib him fer a while.went to catch the movie son of the mask while they went to watch spongebob.this is the 3rd movie tt I watched fer the month lex.hahx.the movie was quite nice & super duper funnie.hahx.went to hab dinner at souP restaurant again.wEeEeEsS~ the food dere realli very nice esP the salad prawnx.making mI drooL again.hahx.aniwae,the vit & the venturex went hiking lex.hope tt they wilL have a fun time dere ba.been msging gOr these few daex.paiseh arx.tt time I realli very ridiculous.sorrie.hmx.before I forget,tmL is nanny adeline de bdae.happie early bdae to u! alL da best to u nanny.u had been a nice chairperson alL along.we love u~ hahx.smiel & take care alwaex.gotta go slp lex.tmL stilL meeting minyen in sch at 8.30am & meeting laogong & nuer audrey at ard 10plus.goodnitex everyone. Todae was sooo tired.went to meet gurllx at ard 6.20am in the morning at sch de mac.omigod.they were sooo loud.esP my xianggong peishi.l0lx.she like wanna wake everyone like tt sia.hahx.aniwae, everybody gathered dere to wait fer bus to send us to sentosa.feLt very happie fer minyen.hmx.minyen arx.dun sae god-ahma no gd horx.all da best to u & u have my blessingx. I would be here no matter wad dex.*winkx. Hahx.went up bus distribute the purpLe first aiders tagx.hahx.the ribbon is purpLe in color! L0ls.mI going craZy but those gurllx behind very bad sia.kept saying anti-purpLe.diaox.nvm.let them win first since they are wearing the purpLe thingy.hahx.reached there liaox den were allocated to our different positions.mI & laogong ended up wib nO where & thus we went up & down the whole jungle traiL see if they alL need our help or nt.we were toking toking toking den also dunno walk untiL where sia.suddenly saw a totally different route frm the route tt we took jux nw.diaox.hurriedly walked back & found out tt we shld have made a turn somewhere 300m away.tt three tupid npcc cadets frm dunno wad sch neber telL us tt mI & laogong took the wrg route when they were supposed to be ushers in tt event.diaox.den made mI & laogong lost our ways.l0lx.we walked up & down fer 3timex I think & everybody headed back to tanjong beach.it was such a long route there.god.lucky gt laogong pei mI crap or else sure die sia.hahx.reached dere lex den dismissed.some of us headed to palawan beach.finalLy can suntan lex.happie.went to change out into tanktop & shortx.saw tt cute guy again! wEeEeEsS~ hahx.he was stilL working at cafe ever since last noV.l0lx.in case some of u dunno tt time in noV when we went to sentosa,haiza & I was suntanning dere.den haiza wanna mI help her get a drink in the café & tt cute guy said tt he would serve us later.he came out wib our drinks & as he walked away,I told haiza tt he was kinda cute.but guessed wad?i didnt knw tt he was behind mI serving other ppL.he heard wad I said lorx.omIgod.tt was s000 malu.l0lx.hahx.s000 excited after seeing him.hahx.think I hadda a crush on him huh?oopx.hmx.went to peeP peeP at him.lalalax~ after which went to play in the water.suntanned wib sher.talked abt lotsa stufF.after tt,mI, minyen, sher, qiuyu, laogong, yixuan & bunny went back first.but before going back,of cos I went to peeP at him again larx.hahx.but dun dare go ask him fer number sia.l0lx.bunny & laogong went back first.den the rest of us went to jE de lJs fer lunch cum dinner.after which,pia to west malL to catch the movie, howls moving castle.tt was sooo nice & touching.didnt regretted watching tt show.thanx yixuan fer recommending.l0ve tt show sia.l0ve the ending also.howl was s000 shuai & he & sophie were s000 loving.*envy hahx.went back to sch tt area.at first wanna sneak into sch wib minyen dex but scared kanna caught by mrlim lehx so in the end neber go in.kangwei poor thing.he sick lorx.mux take care horx.denise jux called mI nt long ago sharing her happiness wib mI.s000 honoured I was the first person tt both minyen & denise shared their happiness wib.hahx.may happiness surround u.oh.in case I forget,in a few minutex time,it is pervert aka cousin aka aLan kOh kAi ming de 14th bdae.happie bdae! All da best to u.stay cooL & shuai worx.u can alwaex share ur probx wib jiE dex understand?take carex. haix.feeling sooo sad nw.wat shld I do?haix.jux hadda another quarreL wib wf.why alwaex like tt?realli feeL s000 depressed.this time round,his wordx had hurt mI even more.he said tt he jux hadda a quarreL wib his mother.feeL very pekchek.mI jux trying to cheer him up wib mY propriety thingy but guessed wad he said?[there is a limit to my tolerance] wad did he mean by tt?haix.nvm.dun take it to heart first cos he jux said it out of anger.didnt mean it.haix.he repeated tt phrase fer 3timex.did he even care fer how I feeL when he said those words out?i bet he didnt ba.tried to tolerate first.after tt,tried to find more topicx to talk abt.was jux making a casuaL remark asking him like why nowadaes he seemed to be hanging out so often wib derek they alL.guessed wad ans he gave mI?he said[canut mehx?issit ur prob?why canut be together wib them lehx?] the next thing I knew,tearx were alreadi flowing down.haix.kept flowing.cant stop.he knew tt too.he told mI tt he was sry.asked mI to stop crying.told mI tt his handx were shivering at tt time.asked why and he said tt cos he said sth wrg.haix.he said tt he said it on impulse.said sorrie again.but tt didn’t help huh?kept crying.are we meant to have at least a huge quarreL in every two to three months?*cross fingerx.hope tt it doesn’t come true. Hmx.blog dead fer a long long time lex.nw at cousinx hse blogging.finally back to see see n look look huh?fridae after sch went pacific plaza wib denise,minyen & qiuyu to look fer nice walletx but sadden sia.cant find any.den went to far east to hab ljs.took cardprintx n it was sooo nice.minyen was super duper chio.weEeEeS~saturdae and sundae both had a nice time out dere.saturdae went out wib the three again to suntec den to bugis.bought a tote bag fer myself under the guidance of mY dearest professionaL minyen.hahx.sundae went out wib uncle and 4 other cousinx.the poor 4 of them hadda squeeze behind while mI?had a comfortable seat in front alL bY myself.l0lx.went to our 1st destination.needa go chinatown buy some living tianji.ermx.is tt type of frogx arx.nt mY primary sch exclassmate horx.hahx.aniwae,the frogx are sooo poor thing.i saw them being skinned alive wib mY own eyex.ohmI.tearx were alreadi welling up in mY eyex.after tt,went to makan breakfast.next destination was holland village de haagen dazs.the icecream was sooo nice.cos mine is own self design de sundae so I chose all the four scoops different chocolate flavour.*droolx.let mI recap ya?two scoops of chocalate chip,one chocalate & one cookiex & cream.chose banana,chocalate cream & chocalate chipx as the toppings.that was cooL huh?next time mux ask ash & xiaomin to go along.hahx.after tt went to chinese garden to release all those living tianji tt we had bought earlier on.next,we went jP to makan AGAIN.oh deaR.i am turning into a fat piggy.oopx.hahx.went to souP restaurant.the food there was delicious. Den,we went to catch the moVie I do I do.the movie was quite nice ba.*clapx. Came out of the theatre and while cousinx & bro were making their way to the toilet,mI saw jJ and him.jJ was like giving such a surprised look like tt.diaox.felt sooo paiseh upon seeing them.squeezed mY way thru the crowd.thought tt wont see them again but hu knws?while making our way down to the carpark down the escalator,we passed by each other again.hmx.also dunno my feelingx larx.dun think I like him lex ba.confused huh?think I would be ending here lex.gtg home lex.byee~ |