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went sch fer dance practice.2dae very very slacked lorx.they all like bz planning fer bbq den dun wan dance like tt.sianx sia.haix.getting a little worried fer the talentime next saturdae lex.haix.wat to do?dance outfit haben even decide yet.oso haben tink of the dance steps fer 1 last verse.haix.mi,as a leader,is sooo useless sia.cant even settle all these stuff.sorrie connie & peishi.u 2 alwaess have to think of the dance steps while i jux do nth.sorrie yixuan if i had nt been a gd partner.sorrie laogong if i had been asking u to be more enthu during dance.sorrie abi if i had been telling u to come fer trainings when u are sooo bz.sorrie bunny if the dance steps tt i had taught u are incorrect.sorrie nanny tt i kept telling u nt to play the piano & cum join us in the practice.sorrie qiuyu cos i had been troubling u wib the dance probx tt i had faced.sorrie minyen tt though u had taught mI how to do the kick,i still can't do it perfectly.sorrie sher tt i alwaes been like a crazy gurll during dance practices.sorrie yuchun tt i alwaes sae u realli belongs to the attitude gang.last but nt least,sorrie haiza mum cos i had nt been a gd leader.sorrie
2dae gt rC training.reached dere jux on time.tink was abt 2min late ba? pulled lydia along cox she still walking sooo slow.hahax.did some drills followed by pt & den games.ncc also gt training 2dae but dan dI neber cum.think he too bz wib church stuff lex ba.the games fer 2dae was quite fun lorx.tupid nanny they all kept saying i no luck dex.cox i alwaes lost at the 1st round.but mI oso quite pro ok?gt 1 time almost reached the ending point lex den lost at the final round.but a bit unfair lorx.cox dere was once whereby i alreadi stepped on the finishing line lex den they sae nt counted cox i was a bit too slow.realli unfair nehx.hahax.nvm ba.jux a game nia wat.qiuyu gave mI a duckie fer x-mas prezzie.thanx.the duckie was sooo cute lorx.realli cute nehx.hahax.jux like mI huh?l0lx.gt a short evac lesson taught bY laogong.saw the sec3 scouts in canteen.dun care much aniwae.denise helped mI buy the star chain fer mY hp.wEeEeEsS~ loved tt star damn lotx.she wanna gave it to mI as a x-mas prezzie but dun wan larx.paid her the money lorx.hahax.thanx.after training,went to do some rC stuff in canteen.haiza gotta go cos her grandma in hospital.hope tt her grandma is alrite ba.went out makan wib laogong.went back sch settle some more stuff.next wk is hQ talentime competition lex & till nw,we haben decided on the outfit yet.such a headache sia.went home lex den realised tt mI still holding on to the music rm keyx.omIgod~ lucky dad cuming home lex.asked him send mI dere return back the keyx.nowadaes mI more & more blur lex lorx.wad's wrg wib mI? sch gonna reopen lex & i still haben touched ani of mY hmk yet.shucks.gotta die.-stressed out 2dae went pei bro went sch. he gt into fuhua. yahui oso. they both still in same class sia. hahax. wat a coincidence. cousinx in same pri sch den same sec sch. hmmm. reached dere at 8am. helped them find their grpx. both in grp 6. saw mOi laogong & ah lian standing at front porch. saw the scouts too. jb's dere. hmmm. dun care much lex ba. went pei laogong do ushering lorx. hahax. kept calling laogong sooo loud in front of the parents sia. l0lx. she sooo damn paiseh. haiza mum next year is 1E's form teacher. all da best to her ba. hope tt it will be a successful year fer her. mI sooo damn free lorx. redcross gt no duty tt dae. saw the npcc dere. wahpiang. they very wat sia. tink they wanna 'impress' the sec1s ba. wth. very wat seh. heck care liaox. helped kangwei they all do ushering. heard tt kangwei's sis oso in this sch worx. sec1 too. aniwae, laogong went to do her duty. alone at the spiral staircase. jux abt to walk down. den saw jb. den he & i walked side by side wib a big gap in between, round the spiral without toking. didnt even bother to look at him. dunno why larx. feel a bit pekchek. think he was like thinking wanna sae hi to mI or nt. cos walk until the end of the spiral den he said a hi. i was like forcing myself to sae lorx. dun be rude mah. all of a sudden dun feel like walking down lex so made a U-turn. many memories & stuff were like rushing thru mOi mind. out of the blue felt like crying. haix. held back mOi tears. wth is wrong wib mI? haix. maybe mood swing ba.after tt decided nt to think sooo much abt the past lex. wat fer hold on to the past when it's no longer like tt? mux stay cheerful mah. hahax. mux smile more. hahax. helped him do the ushering too. nvm larx. helping others is kinda of a gd deed too ya? no matter hu tt person is, oso mux do ur best to help wat. hahax. mI nice horx? l0lx. saw audrey after tt. hahax. she came to see choir perform dex. mI helped bro buy bks. thanx kangwei fer offering to help mI. after tt, went to help mOi lady boss audrey & laogong to let the gurlls try out the uniforms. hahax. audrey realli like a lady boss like tt lorx. hahax. maybe she gt the face ba. l0lx. laogong was like slacking all the while. hahax. minyen dey all stayed in rC rm to do the banner. cant stay fer long. mI, laogong & audrey decided to go jp makan. makan at LJS lehx. wEeEeEsS~ sooo long neber makan at LJS liaox. on the way dere, mI & audrey 'combined forces'. l0lx. to suan mOi laogong of cos. hahax. but 2dae laogong very guai lehx. didnt even retaliate when i pinched her face. hahax. maybe cos she wanna act guai in front of audrey ba. l0lx. makan finish lex went walk walk. audrey seemed quite happie. went to take pix. wEeEeEsS~ excited again. cos long time neber take pix lex mah. oso neber take wib audrey & laogong b4. hahax. mI was like jumping ard while walking. l0lx. the both of them siam everytime i do this. l0lx. sooo many ppl stared at mI sia. damn paiseh. at first thought nobody staring dex mah. hahax. well aniwae went walk walk. received a call frm *erhemx. tupid laogong kept pestering mI while i was toking on the fone de lorx. hahax. btw, dun be mistaken. tt *erhemx is nt another scout. had lotss of troubles wib scouts lex. wanna stay far far away frm them when it cums to bgr stuff. but when it cums to buddiex & gd frenx, they make a very gd one. hahax. e.g. wf, jm, jw ... not fogetting mOi di too. hahax. went back earli cos needa go fer haircut mah. hope tt next time get to go out wib audrey again. aniwae, she became mI & laogong's daughter lex worx. hahax. tt hairdresser cut mOi hair until sooo short lorx. dun tink i gt face to go sch ba. lucky these few daex no nid go sch or else i dunno where to hide mOi face sia. nw slacking again. one and a half wks more, sch gonna reopen lex. sianx. haben even touch mOi hlidaex assignments yet. shit man. gotta die. still gotta rush the next year 30week plan cos wanna win the best unit award mah. still gt rC & dance trainings next wk. yaqing sch de band concert oso cuming lex. how i am gonna handle all these? --it's wearing mI out-- exhausted* exhausted
wOws~ these few daes had been sooo bz wib rC stuff. realli very packed. no time to go out sia... sundae-went to imm wib family & cousins. finally can go out after 3daex lex. phew~ lucky i haben die of boredom yet. hahax. bought a realli cute hp pouch & 2 racer back tees. quite happie ba. sundae nite chatted wib jinming until 11pm plus lorx. he damn pro in chatting lehx. hahax. realli canut judge by appearance sia. chatted quite a lot of stuff ba. paiseh lehx. mI everytime hadda hang up the fone sooo abruptly. cos mum wanna mI hang up mah. paiseh. after hanging up the call, dunno why lehx. jux kept running errands to the toilet , vomiting. feeling sooo terrible sia. having diarhoea too. god. mondae gt unit meeting at 10am. laopa sent mI dere cos mI no energy to go dere liaox. reached dere early. saw the sec3s scouts. kinda sianx of seeing him ba. dunno lehx. maybe cos of tt lie tt he told on the 29th noV. haix. dun wanna comment much. jux hate ppl lying to mI.
ard 9.45am lex still neber see them ard lehx. nanny lied to mI worx. said tt they gt UG meeting frm 8 to 10am but it actually starts at 1pm. diaox. hahax. denise reached early den we went find haiza ma take radio & simple plan's cd. oMigod. i realli love 'untitled'. it rox man~ everyone came fer meeting except abi & qiuyu cos abi quite late den wanna cum mah. dun wan her waste her trip here, tok crap fer a while den go back. qiuyu went play badminton wib jess they all. during the meeting planned the 30-wk plan tt we mux do to earn the unit excellence award. tough job man. very thorough planning to do. meanwhile, mI oso taught bunny the new dance. she learnt quite fast lorx. hahax. haiza ma quite sick. hope tt she will get well soon ba. went to 7-11 to buy sandwiches. laogong & bunny went home first den mI pei nanny & denise go fer UG camp. hahax. excited seh. on the way back to sch was a bit siaox larx. jumping here & dere. hahax. tt's nt all lehx. met haiza ma on the way back to sch. she wanna pull mI home lorx. l0lx. dun wanna mI lose face later in the UG meeting. reached sch fer a while lex den haiza ma called denise. guess wad she said? she said tt ivy told her tt she saw all mOi crazy acts & the sec3s scouts were all dere too. oMigod... mI was totally freaked out! l0lx. went classrm wanna take the radio go keep. tt tupid luis deserved a beating seh. he told mI tt he forgot to help mI look after it & had left it in the canteen. diaox. mI hurriedly went canteen check out cos dunno wanna lose haiza ma's radio mah. cannot find. went back to classrm. the radio was on the table lorx!!! -.-''' tupid luis lied to mI. wanna bash him up sia. he can sign up to be mediacorp's actor liaox lorx. it was 5min past 1 lex & none of the npcc rep nor scouts turned up. used denise's fone msg congsheng dI. he very wat seh. neber reply mI. made mI sooo worried abt him sia. guess hu he came wib? tt liar. haix. ok larx. shan't keep calling him liar lex. like wad i had said, they wont be able to turn up fer the camp dex cos they gotta a jobweek camp in march holidaex mah. jinming said dex. well he was correct. everytime i ask dI qns, he will ans de lorx. den give tt happie look some more. make mI feel more angri sia. they left halfway thru the meeting cos they wont be turning up fer camp mah. looks like both scouts & ncc love it damn lots sia. haix. maybe it's like np & us ba. nt on gd termx dex. aniwae, haiza ma had alreadi decided tt she wanna all of us to be enthu & take part in the camp. nw dying out of exhaustion liaox. gt 8daex neber touch hp lex. dying soon. neber msg feng too. haix. hope to get back fone soon ba. gotta go chat wib jinming lex. byee~ troubles.troubles.troubles.sadx.
finally here to blog... haix... these few daes had been realli bad... cant seem to even be happie... haix... aniwae, 10th deC was peishi dear's b'dae. happie belated b'dae.
11st deC realli special dae. it was the 6th month fer daddyy & mI & it was the 14th month fer kokseng gOr & mI... but as per normal, they both dun rmb anything. sadx seh. onli mI rmb nia. haix. did i mention tt wufeng start work lex? dun tink so huh... he has been working since thur until nw. mondaes to saturdaes. long hours some more. so poor thing. aniwae, jiawei going abroad lex. gotta miss him... 12nd deC been msging wufeng & jinming. haix. having a quarrel wib wufeng again. sadx. cant stand it at all. feeling sooo terrible. haix... dun wanna tok abt the quarrel lex. eyes alreadi very swollen liaox. msg jinming & tok abt some of our probs. haix. dun think sooo much yah? cheer up dude... cos been msging & hp ran out of batt. went to charge & ma woke up. all quarrels started. tt's the beginning of the war.haix. gotta into trouble again. sianx. alreadi in a damn bad mood lex still kanna scolding.nt onli tt lorx, cos she dun like mI msg during midnite & dun wanna go slp mah & thus mete out several punishments. banned frm internet, hps & kanna grounded. sobs. wtf!?! dun even wan to let mI see mOi msg. haix. crying sooo hard sia. fer the whole of this dae, it had been like h*ll fer mI... sadded... why alwaess like tt? i cant stand this kind of stuff dex. i'm easily hurt by wat ppl sae & wat ppl scold. alwaes take their words very hard dex. haix. nearly did some silly stuff AGAIN. wth actually wanna go 6.1 de gathering dex but she dun allow mI go. wth~ haix... mI monitress lehx & moreover, i'm one of the organisers. haix. suan lex ba... dun wanna kept repeating these vulgarities. pei her go library lorx. saw jj & heow jie dere. tupid jj very diaox lehx. lucky gt see him dere or else i wuld jux give a black face in the library. he stared at mI until like tt den heow jie was like saying 'she gt sooo hardworking mehx? take sooo many bks' l0lx. tupid them sia. wunjien called mI at nite & asked mI to go fer the bbq. sae he cum to pick mI up. thanx fer calling mI but realli cant go. sry. next time den pei u go out. 13rd deC rotted at home & helped her wib her household chores. haix. not allowed to make any calls more den 5min. torture man~ onli allowed to ans calls. dad very gd. still let mi see mOi msgs. saw 7 of wufeng's msgs. haix. thanx. 1st few msgs was asking if i was dere. was like saying sry after tt & the last msg read tt 'nvm if i dun wanna reply. jux wanna tell u sry nia. haix' gotta a shock. haix. wanna reply him but i cant. called his hse number. 4gt tt he working. called his hp at 9.05pm but he said tt he cant tok cos he's still working. haix. also dunno whether izzit ok fer the both of us or nt. sianx. sadx. troubled. hope tt mOi 'ears' will be back soon. cant stand keeping all these rubbish all in mI. sobbing... breaking down... think simple plan's welcome to my life can sorta describe wat i'm feeling & wat i wanna sae ba... haix... sTaNdArD fIrSt aIdEr LeX... l0lx
hmmm... finally have the time to blog lex... decided to change blog url again... tt latest one was nt chosen bY mI de worx... so if it's kinda lame n silly, pls dun blame mI... hahax... mY "ears" helped mI choose de... hahax... these few daes went for standard first aid course & it can be really tiring... hahax... but it's worth it cos i had passed!!! wEeEeEeSs~ l0lx... sooo damn eXcited lorx...
30th nOv let mI start wib mY first dae ba... this instructor of ours sooo damn funnie & cute lorx... hahax... early in the morning, helped haiza mum collect the $4 frm eVeryone... gt ncc training tt dae sia... can see dan dI lex... yeah... the 2 ncc guyx haben cum lorx... so mI went to ask ard... den went ncc rm knock knock... ask tt malay guy... saw dI in the rm... sooo excited seh.... hahax... sorta wanna start a "quarrel" wib him larx... hahax... eVeryone turned up except abi... she went for her tennis course & 4gt all abt the SFA... pengx... oMigod... she very blur seh... haiza mum quite angri... our instructor's name is james ng... den the slide still gt put his chinese surname sooo big... "huang"... den mI kept referring him as james huang... hahax... =P 1st dae de lesson quite sianx lorxx... but he bery the funnie seh... his pronounciation mux have failed dex... hahax... i'm nt trying to be bad lorx but it's realli the truth... he pronounced oxygen as 'oxisen', pulse rate as 'paol rate', disposable gloves as 'dispersable', swelling as 'swearing' & etc etc... l0lx... damn funnie... den mI kept laughing like craZy... hahax... mI sat wib bunny & denisey & partnered wib denisey... realli regretted partnering wib her lehx... she kept touching mI during prac... l0lx... 1st dae ended kinda tired... went makan at jp de ljs... yeah!!! sooo happie... makan ljs again... 2nd time tis wk lex... laogong was like giving mI tt kind of diaox look lorx... hahax... too bad... hu ask mI to be her laopo? lalala... mI went home after tt... dun wanna meet ks gOr lex cos he was wib his friend mah... feel kinda weird if i go meet him... he msged mI & said tt he saw cindy... arghs... spoil mY mood seh... nVm... dun wanna mention abt her lex... aniwae, it's totally over between mI & him lex... wat for carry on toking? 1st dEc 2nd dae was almost the same... but nt as sianx as first dae lex cos nt much theory... but gt cpr... hahax... mI just kept shivering when doing prac dex... den he kept saying tt i molest the manikin cos i didnt do the chest compressions at the right point... l0lx... didnt makan at ljs 2dae... hahax... laogong was like sooo happie lorx... l0lx... at nite msged boiboi... he sooo bad nehx... neVer reply mY msg since afternoon... i wanna kill him of cos... hahax... den he was like saying i bear kill him mehx? l0lx... how i dun dare? hehex... actually i dun bear larx... >.< called him up after tt... he ans the fone... told him tt i looking for a tupid idiotic guy... den he lame lorx... sae i called for the wrong number & tis is nt a mental hospital... den hanged up mY call... l0lx... called again 2nd time... hahax... tis time clever a bit... told him tt i looking for tt tupid chinwufeng... hahax... actually wanna ask him take care de cos he going for camp lex but hu knws? he going on fri... hahax... i blur seh... cos ventures onli helping out so onli needa go on fridae... ended up chatting wib him... lalala... mI sooo damn hyper & enthu lorx... den he sae i siaox... hahax... he called mI mummy twice worx... sooo happie... happie shalala~ hmmm... tink i too happie until i lost mY yitai lex? l0lx... den maintain mY yitai... hahax... he tupid lehx... sae i dun eVen have yitai dex... how to maintain? -.-''' he good lorx... like tt sae mI... l0lx... ended the chat ard half an hr plus later cos we both wanna watch the singapore idol results mah... sooo happie after chatting wib him sia... hahax... we both are finally ok after 11 daes... wEeEeEsS~ realli feel blessed... hehex... gotta cherish boiboi lex... taufik won the singapore idol title... both sly & him were quite gd lorx... 2nd dEc 3rd dae of course was gd bax... maybe cos i in gd mood tt's why tt dae de lesson seemed sooo fun... learnt to do the cpr better lex... learnt quite a lot of bandaging stuff too... tt tupid denisey very pervertic lorx... kept touching mI here & there dex... hahax... mI went touching bunny... l0lx... sooo damn funnie sia... james huang very gd seh... dunno izzit he wanna celebrate mY happiness... l0lx... gaVe us 1 and a half hr of lunch break... mI, laogong, bunny, nanny & jennifer went jp de ljs... lalala... laogong sae tis is for celebrating tt mI & boiboi ok lex... l0lx... gek jinming tt i can makan ljs cos it's his favourite too... hahax... he sooo gd sia... sae wanna treat mI to ljs neXt time... hahax... deal horx... we went takeaway den took 187 back... sooo less ppl on the bus & the bus driVer looked sooo fierce... dey ate halfway den dun dare eat liaox... l0lx... mI just dun care... continued eating... lalala... was just on time for class & blah blah for the rest of the lesson... studied quite hard for the test tml lehxx... but haben studi finish larx... waited for boiboi to msg mI... asked him to take care... told 'lobster' & jinming too... hahax... gotta miss him... went slp lex... 3rd dEc 2dae went sch realli earli lorx... cos wanna studi & practise wib lagong & bunny mah... james huang did revision wib us... he very gd to us de lorx... these four daes wib him had been gd... he's nt fierce at all... can let us eat & drink during his class sia... but he just wanna us be serious when we are doing our prac larx... he's sooo humorous too... we are familiarised wib his 'oxisen' & 'paol rate' by nw... it's unique k? nt eVeryone can pronounce like tt dex... hahax... gonna miss him too... though he's nt shuai & young at all, he had been realli nice to all of us... tt thiru examiner was late lehx... we were supposed to take the theory paper @ 11am dex but delayed until 12pm... tt examiner looked a bit like the bus driver we saw ytd... l0lx... both gt tt type of fierce look... hahax... took the theory paper... the test was a bit slack lorx... cos bunny, denisey & mI can tok tok n check ans dex... hahax... but den nt very easy larx... lucky gt pay attention when james huang was doing revision... hahax... went for lunch break after tt... mI, laogong & bunny went to buy bubble tea again... bought some snacks den hurry go back sch lex... cos nervous mah... if fail theory paper, canut take prac & mux go back straight lehx... sooo malu sia... hahax... nt onli tt lorx... studied quite hard too so dun wish to fail... james huang kept telling us nt to worry sooo much... the most if fail, lied to them tt i help him carry back & go back home... l0lx... mI & bunny went to ask thiru if we gt pass... he just told us to go do the cpr... we were sooo blur lorx... kept saying huh dex... hahax... cos he didnt even checked the name list mah... how he knw we gt pass or nt? james huang told us tt if thiru told us to carry on wib cpr, tt means tt we passed the theory paper... mI & bunny a bit happie larx... but cpr prac popped out wib a few careless mistakes... lucky he nv told us off sia... told mI to go do a bandage on bunny... said tt is shoulder injury... mI sooo damn nervous lorx... a bit blur... asked ard secretively... l0lx... scared kanna caught bY him seh... hahax... he said tt eVerything is alrite wib the bandage eXcept tt the sling is hang wrg side... lucky nv tio scolding... den he told bunny tt i gotta a upper arm fracture & told her to do bandaging on mI... bunny tied wrong sling... she tied elevation sling den thiru asked her wat sling shld she do... she said arm sling... thiru asked her how much % she gt... bunny just told him the passing % for our theory paper which is 60%... l0lx... she damn funnie... thiru was also laughing lorx... he still said very loud: "so 40% down huh?" l0lx... after a retry, mI & bunny were the first ones to pass sia... wEeEeEsS~ sooo eXcited... too bad james huang went back lex canut thank him... sadxsadx nehx... neXt wk go sch wanna ask haiza mum for james huang de number... l0lx... nw still quite eXcited sia... gt license wan lehx... lalala... msged boiboi & told him abt it... nw chatting online wib dan dI... gotta go pom pom lex... byee~ |